I'm in an agony. I feel like giving up. I'm am tired & sick of all these, telling you i'm fine when i'm actually not. Do you even know how i feel inside me? I tried to forget but it seems so difficult. I can't do anything to stop all these pain, it's traumatising.
Can i not prevent just to make you feel happier? Can i stop putting on a facade telling you i'm fine, Jiayou & that it's alright i don't mind?
But the truth is, i can't do it. '
You know how i feel like? I feel like i became a superwoman. But am i that strong and super?
HAIS my mind is filled with troubles and sorrows.
Sadist is what i am.
Okays anyway i went to find auntie just now at Qb, had a chat with them and went home. On the way home i saw Yvonne OMG SO HAPPY CANS! I MISS HER SO MUCH LEH!
):
Girl, JY FOR O's! I LOVE YOU AH!
WILL BE BEHIND YOU DE GOO!!!!
p/s. love really hurts, people are the most evil creatures on earth
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Why am i so stupid!
Shh! Don't say anything!
Arh, whatever.
I think i'm so stupid.
I can't seem to grasp the concepts.
I can't seem to understand anything!
I'm so noob can!
Aiya, i'm crestfallen, crestfallen CRESTFALLEN!
Hais.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Wierd thoughts & feelings.
I am having wierd thoughts nowadays, i am slacking so much nowadays. Haiya, Gotta buck up soon ! *prays* that i will!
Things are not flowing smoothly like r\s, money and stuff. ):
Okays, i will jiayou!
Haha. I'm currently watching Fantasy couple (: A korean drama which is so cute! Lol. The female and male lead will never stop arguing! Hehe.
I am learning to be independent (: I will be, eventually. :D
JIAYIOU! hehe.
By the way, i think that blue checkered is cute ! Hehe. :D
Okays. Nothing much for me to blog except that i'm kinda tired ):
Will head downstairs with mum to have dinner then over to Ros house and tutor her, again.
It's been 2 days since i last met hubby, i miss him.
I had a tiff with him, i scolded him. I feel kinda bad but i don't think i did anything wrong bahs.
TO: Pss Close friends (Vernon,Liming,Jasper,Sheila,Dionis,Jade,Joanne,Fides,Xueqi,Daphni)
I really miss those good old days. The days where we got disgusted by the ever same topic:Sex & Identity,
The days we played foolish games like Fazzi Wazzi, The golden old days we sing together, watched horror films together, chill at Mac together and scolded the hooligans together. Though it may be short & in between there are too much misunderstandings and unhappiness, i really miss those times. The neos we took, the little tiffs that made our bond stronger, the encouragement we gave each other are really, vaulable.
Sometimes i wish you guys are my classmates now.
But i know it's silly, it's foolish thinking like this. So i just hope that we would meet soon please. ):
I MISS YOU ALL LARH !):
BTW, I MISS MR LEE WENNHAN!
TAGS REPLIES..
to Vernon : YOu jy too! hehe. TEH HAMINGU! haha now my hair is straight le. haha thanks ah! :D
to joanne: hehheh. i llook like chi-na leh i think. haha thanks kays hehe. you used to have this kinda bangs also wad. ahha. (:
Things are not flowing smoothly like r\s, money and stuff. ):
Okays, i will jiayou!
Haha. I'm currently watching Fantasy couple (: A korean drama which is so cute! Lol. The female and male lead will never stop arguing! Hehe.
I am learning to be independent (: I will be, eventually. :D
JIAYIOU! hehe.
By the way, i think that blue checkered is cute ! Hehe. :D
Okays. Nothing much for me to blog except that i'm kinda tired ):
Will head downstairs with mum to have dinner then over to Ros house and tutor her, again.
It's been 2 days since i last met hubby, i miss him.
I had a tiff with him, i scolded him. I feel kinda bad but i don't think i did anything wrong bahs.
TO: Pss Close friends (Vernon,Liming,Jasper,Sheila,Dionis,Jade,Joanne,Fides,Xueqi,Daphni)
I really miss those good old days. The days where we got disgusted by the ever same topic:Sex & Identity,
The days we played foolish games like Fazzi Wazzi, The golden old days we sing together, watched horror films together, chill at Mac together and scolded the hooligans together. Though it may be short & in between there are too much misunderstandings and unhappiness, i really miss those times. The neos we took, the little tiffs that made our bond stronger, the encouragement we gave each other are really, vaulable.
Sometimes i wish you guys are my classmates now.
But i know it's silly, it's foolish thinking like this. So i just hope that we would meet soon please. ):
I MISS YOU ALL LARH !):
BTW, I MISS MR LEE WENNHAN!
TAGS REPLIES..
to Vernon : YOu jy too! hehe. TEH HAMINGU! haha now my hair is straight le. haha thanks ah! :D
to joanne: hehheh. i llook like chi-na leh i think. haha thanks kays hehe. you used to have this kinda bangs also wad. ahha. (:
Monday, July 28, 2008
A change of mood.
A sudden change of mood calls for my sudden change of blogskin. Haha. I was kinda sick of my old blogskin, so dark & girly. Zzz.
HAha anyway, i'm really exhausted eh. ):
I neeed many hourssss of sleeeeeeeeepppp!!! :D
& i need much much money! ):
I need to make a new specs really soon ;
i hope that i can get it done this month hopefully (:
Well i'm not going to say much on anything now. It's tough, it's so scary ; so lonely. I wouldn't want to end up like that so now i am going to accumulate good karma & be extra-ordinary nice to people (:
CHEERIOS!
To my dearest 安娜姐（：
First of all, i would like to express my apology to you. I'm sorry i used mean words & hurt you; those words were impulsive words and deep down in my heart, i have no intention close to hurting you. And also, Thank you for whatever you have done for our family. I know you've been contributing so much to keep this family going strong but i didn't realise it beforehand. I really want to show you all that you all means a lot to me; i know sometimes i tend to get fed up and flare up unnessarily and it gets so irritating that i am so insensible ; but everytime after my actions i will start to reflect on myself. I know you all will give me time and support me no matter what i do, just as long my decision is precise and correct. I'm really thankful to be part of this family (: I love you :D
Today's a long school day and i'm going to go off now.
Nothing more to blog (:
CHEERIOS
Hahaha such an unglam Picture (:
but nonetheless, i still miss my curls ):
Heheh, BANGS are fun yo! Heh.
JALGA~!
HAha anyway, i'm really exhausted eh. ):
I neeed many hourssss of sleeeeeeeeepppp!!! :D
& i need much much money! ):
I need to make a new specs really soon ;
i hope that i can get it done this month hopefully (:
Well i'm not going to say much on anything now. It's tough, it's so scary ; so lonely. I wouldn't want to end up like that so now i am going to accumulate good karma & be extra-ordinary nice to people (:
CHEERIOS!
To my dearest 安娜姐（：
First of all, i would like to express my apology to you. I'm sorry i used mean words & hurt you; those words were impulsive words and deep down in my heart, i have no intention close to hurting you. And also, Thank you for whatever you have done for our family. I know you've been contributing so much to keep this family going strong but i didn't realise it beforehand. I really want to show you all that you all means a lot to me; i know sometimes i tend to get fed up and flare up unnessarily and it gets so irritating that i am so insensible ; but everytime after my actions i will start to reflect on myself. I know you all will give me time and support me no matter what i do, just as long my decision is precise and correct. I'm really thankful to be part of this family (: I love you :D
Today's a long school day and i'm going to go off now.
Nothing more to blog (:
CHEERIOS
Hahaha such an unglam Picture (:
but nonetheless, i still miss my curls ):
Heheh, BANGS are fun yo! Heh.
JALGA~!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Sadist ):
): My bruises are : very obvious!
): I can't wear short clothings now.Hmpfs!
(: But dada is so good, he massaged the bruise for me & now it's healing up! yay@!
Aww, anyway darling gave me a new hairstyle today!
hahaha. '
My bangs bangs are cute!
LOL.
hahah i love him !(:
He's so sweet yo :DDDDDDDDDdd
MUACKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!
LEEWENNHAN JIAJIAJIAJIA WO AI NI DUO DUO!
kekekeX (:
& he rebonded mummy's hair for her hahahha (:
Mummy is so adorable! :D
Loves her!
Hahaha SHEILA SHEILA SHEILA SHEILA SHEILA I MISS YOU YOU MUST KNOW! (:
LOVES ME?
HEHEHHE!
omg so bhb haha!
Wees. byes
Monday, July 21, 2008
)":
EVeryone is getting on another part of their journey..
But am i?
): It's so contradicting how we feel towards some things .
I wish everything was easier;
Sometimes i wish i could have a pair of wings ; fly up all the way to the sky & pick up the time capsule.
Polytechnic's life is HELL practically ;
Too many projects undone ; too many tests to study for ; too many information to cramp my brain with ; Too many explanations to make ; too many reflections to get done with ; too little time ; too little money ; too little friends ):
Sometimes i wish i will not grow up , apparently WILL never get to a new begining of my life.
It's tough yeah indeed & it takes hell loads of adaptation skills to get used to it.
But it's okay ; i WILL DO IT , i MUST DO IT ; it's MY DREAM to be part of this cohort,this course ; so i MUST PROVE IT ON (:
To everyone's who shared the same feelings as i do , remember :
"It's just part & parcel of life ; life in Singapore paticularly ; to be exact. In Singapore , the economy made it a difficult place to live in ; rising prices & everything. It's hectic yeah, but i believe we all should do whatever we could ; get a new job when we graduate & yeah migrate to whereever you want , perferably Austrialia XP So, JIAYOU people!~~!!!!
Anyway , MAC is organising a trip to thailand Bangkok during the SEpt Holidays for 4D3N !!! I'm so attracted to go to Bangkok!! :D Sounds fun though ; with manicure sessions, massage sessions, spa&facial sessions ; eyelashes extension ; water theme parks & more!!!!!!! And the cost is reasonable ; between 2 to 3 hundred bucks (: I wish i could go!!!!! Sigh! ): But my phone bill for this month exceeded greatly(like nearly 300bucks?!!) i think i will not have the chance to join the MAC peeps on that trip ): I want to mingle with the people , get to know them & not be some anonymous in the club. I want to be recognised. (:
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU FOR ALL OUTCOMING TESTS AND PROJECTS!!!!
ALL THE WAY SARAH!! YOU CAN DO IT :D
Tata!
Some pictures to end this long awaited entry (or is it not?) Hahaha.
BYES~!
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Busy busy busy
YOs People!!! :D HAve you guys missed me! ): I doubt so yeah, nobody tags me ; at all :(
Depressed Zzzzz.!
Anyway i am having EC now and i can't stand the teacher at all! ): She's so..... boring. :X
(12.50pm)
(7.10pm) I had a really long school day and am now uber exhausted. ): Sighs. How i wish... i wish... i wish..
I wish for 11.11pm to come by so i could wish for my wish. ):
I wish to see smackface(just a tad little,not very much), i wish to see my boyfriend (Very very very much!) Sobs. I have this feeling that my life is going to be packed with examinations and projects soon. ):
Upcoming examinations & Projects & due dates:
ITB Individual PPt slide - Tuesday, 15th July (Most of my classmates have already done it but because of my sickening lappie, i can't do it yet)
PTH 7-page Report - 1 August i think (:
CD ppt Cip Project - Week 17, 3 weeks later :D
PACC CA2 - Monday, 14th July (*Cries*)
STATISTICS CA2/Retest - Friday, 18th July ):
EC CA1 Examination -Thursday, 17th July
FUNE CA2 - 24th July
Phew. I'm freaked out by my School now. ): It's getting tougher, very exhausting and lots of hardwork needs to be done. 14th July is Our half Year's Anniversary!!!!!! I was thinking of celebrating with Darling after School but i guess from what it seems now, there will not be much time to celebrate. SUAY! ):
Anyway After EC today, the 10 girls including me went to FC5 ( we wanted to have kfc cheese fries!! ). When we reached Fc5, it was flooded with people. Hahhaha! We had no choice but to go to Pizzahut (: It seems so cool, there were a 10-seater table which seems like it was meant for us!! :D
After the long break of 3 Hours ( CD was cancelled ) , we went for PACC. Actually, i would like it if the time slot for EC was replaced by CD because that means we do not need to head school that early. Awws. Back to the story, PACC was , as usual , boring. Cheng , as usual , sounds so irritating. (*I have so much against his slang and the moment he opens his mouth and starts talking, i feel like smacking it! *Winks) The exam papers were returned to us and i was rather surprised that i actually passed. Not a good pass though. ): After PACC, i got to know my PTH marks . It was, needlessly to say, badly badly badly done. I predicted this kind of grades though. Because i didn't put my heart into studying for it , at all. ): It is so.. depressing. ):
i love kellygirl manys! :D
Lastly, I MISS LEEWENNHAN A LOT!!!! ):
Depressed Zzzzz.!
Anyway i am having EC now and i can't stand the teacher at all! ): She's so..... boring. :X
(12.50pm)
(7.10pm) I had a really long school day and am now uber exhausted. ): Sighs. How i wish... i wish... i wish..
I wish for 11.11pm to come by so i could wish for my wish. ):
I wish to see smackface(just a tad little,not very much), i wish to see my boyfriend (Very very very much!) Sobs. I have this feeling that my life is going to be packed with examinations and projects soon. ):
Upcoming examinations & Projects & due dates:
ITB Individual PPt slide - Tuesday, 15th July (Most of my classmates have already done it but because of my sickening lappie, i can't do it yet)
PTH 7-page Report - 1 August i think (:
CD ppt Cip Project - Week 17, 3 weeks later :D
PACC CA2 - Monday, 14th July (*Cries*)
STATISTICS CA2/Retest - Friday, 18th July ):
EC CA1 Examination -Thursday, 17th July
FUNE CA2 - 24th July
Phew. I'm freaked out by my School now. ): It's getting tougher, very exhausting and lots of hardwork needs to be done. 14th July is Our half Year's Anniversary!!!!!! I was thinking of celebrating with Darling after School but i guess from what it seems now, there will not be much time to celebrate. SUAY! ):
Anyway After EC today, the 10 girls including me went to FC5 ( we wanted to have kfc cheese fries!! ). When we reached Fc5, it was flooded with people. Hahhaha! We had no choice but to go to Pizzahut (: It seems so cool, there were a 10-seater table which seems like it was meant for us!! :D
After the long break of 3 Hours ( CD was cancelled ) , we went for PACC. Actually, i would like it if the time slot for EC was replaced by CD because that means we do not need to head school that early. Awws. Back to the story, PACC was , as usual , boring. Cheng , as usual , sounds so irritating. (*I have so much against his slang and the moment he opens his mouth and starts talking, i feel like smacking it! *Winks) The exam papers were returned to us and i was rather surprised that i actually passed. Not a good pass though. ): After PACC, i got to know my PTH marks . It was, needlessly to say, badly badly badly done. I predicted this kind of grades though. Because i didn't put my heart into studying for it , at all. ): It is so.. depressing. ):
i love kellygirl manys! :D
Lastly, I MISS LEEWENNHAN A LOT!!!! ):
Sunday, July 6, 2008
hellos
YO BLOGGER, 
I LOVE MY NEW BOOTS HAHA
THAT'S THE ONLY IMPORTANT THING YOU SHOULD KNOW.
HAHA, FOR MORE PLEASE LOG ON TO
LINGLING08.LIVEJOURNAL.COM (:
SANKS & LEAVE SOME CANDIES BEHIND FOR ME
YOYO, I LOVE YOU GUYS MUACKS!
P/S I LOVE MY HUBBY HUBBY HUBBY, ALTHOUGH THERE WERE TIFFS BUT I STILL NEED HIM BADLY!
HAHA. AND PLEASE DO CONTINUE TO TAG, I WILL STILL REPLY YEAH.
SANKS.
MIGHT BE HAVING A BLOGSHOP SOON YEAHS.
AHHAHA
FOR NOW, BUHBYES LOVE YOU GUYS WEES
Friday, July 4, 2008
hellos
Dear blog, it's been long since i've posted any entry here.
From now onwards,i'll be posting my personal stuff (really personal) into : http://lingling08.livejournal.com
which will only be available to be read by mY friends :D
I guess i wil blog less often here but don't worry i will still update here occassionally (:
Please be redirected over that website okays!
CHEERIOS!
I AM ADDICTED TO YOU SWEETIE,
NOW THAT I DON'T PLAY WITH MY TWEETY;
MY EYES HAVE BE TWITCHING ;
OH, I THINK IT'S HOW MUCH I MISS YOU PRETTY (:.
I SORT OF HAD A TIFF WITH HUBBY;
):
OH, HOW MUCH I MISS HIM.
I COULD HAVE SEEN HIM TODAY,
BUT DIDN'T. I LOVE HIM.
PLEASE DON'T IGNORE ME DEAR.
MY HEART SANK ):
LEEWENNHAN = MY LOVE.
REPLIES TO TAGS:
AishwaryaHello,will link you up soon (: miss you too! *meow! hahahs :D Take care ya :D
WeiQianHellos,you too last long with your bf, haha. he's from our primary school hors? Hahaha! so sweet luhs!
JingYOSee i use lime green!YowassupYO! hahah. lover!! I miss you! haha. add me in livejournal okays? hehe!
From now onwards,i'll be posting my personal stuff (really personal) into : http://lingling08.livejournal.com
which will only be available to be read by mY friends :D
I guess i wil blog less often here but don't worry i will still update here occassionally (:
Please be redirected over that website okays!
CHEERIOS!
I AM ADDICTED TO YOU SWEETIE,
NOW THAT I DON'T PLAY WITH MY TWEETY;
MY EYES HAVE BE TWITCHING ;
OH, I THINK IT'S HOW MUCH I MISS YOU PRETTY (:.
I SORT OF HAD A TIFF WITH HUBBY;
):
OH, HOW MUCH I MISS HIM.
I COULD HAVE SEEN HIM TODAY,
BUT DIDN'T. I LOVE HIM.
PLEASE DON'T IGNORE ME DEAR.
MY HEART SANK ):
LEEWENNHAN = MY LOVE.
REPLIES TO TAGS:
AishwaryaHello,will link you up soon (: miss you too! *meow! hahahs :D Take care ya :D
WeiQianHellos,you too last long with your bf, haha. he's from our primary school hors? Hahaha! so sweet luhs!
JingYOSee i use lime green!YowassupYO! hahah. lover!! I miss you! haha. add me in livejournal okays? hehe!
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