I grew up with one goal - to shed those hideous fats off my body.
Then when i was sec 4, i established another goal - 0 levels l1r4 9points/ get into DTRM from either Np or Sp.
Obviously, i didn't quite make it for the former but for the latter, i did achieved my goal. (However i still can't decide whether i have made a wise choice because i'm beginning to question my suitability for this industry)
That goal landed myself in SP's DTRM but what is my next goal?
I have no idea.
I realised that from the moment i stepped foot into this institution, i haven't been enjoying myself/enjoying the things i do at all . I have no goals, no more dreams (some which are unrealistic though) , no more 'best friends forever' and i have been trying too hard to please everyone!
What's up with me?
Why am i stuck in this school pursuing this diploma right now?
Why am i trying so hard to fit into the puzzle?
Is it even worth my time ?
Will i be able to survive in this industry?
Am i up to the task ?
I have so many burning questions...
yet i am still searching for a solution...
But before i am done searching, i guess i just have to study HRM before i die on wednesday.
Wennhan's birthday 2010
Back to the point, although there were no candles at all for him this year (all thanks to my careless thought) i could tell that he was really happy this year. With all members of his family present (especially me *), with us sharing his cake as a representation of sharing his joy of turning 20years old.. He was happy, truly happy. This year is special because it was celebrated with everyone of his family unlike other years i will always be the only one with him. This year i didn't get him any pressie at all as i didn't know what to buy (i wanted to get him a ck wallet, but he insisted that his wallet is still in good condition and he didn't need another one.. Could've gotten him a bag if i haven't already order them from h81 hence didn't buy anything in the end) and i am really glad that he was happy with the cake i baked and happy with nothing but me. He always make me feel very appreciated 98% of the time (like not forgetting to emphasize on his feelings whenever i act on something etc..) and i think this is love. Love is all about caring, sharing, giving without asking for anything but appreciation. Girls just wanna feel appreciated. Guys too sometimes. Everyone needs appreciation for the things they have done and this could be accomplished simply by a kind gesture accompanied with a "thank you" that's all sufficient to brighten ones' day up. Love is special, it makes all of us noble - when we give without taking, when we appreciate each other it's all that matters...
And it's only with wennhan i feel this way, he's so different from all the guys I've met. Guys who only have one ultimate goal - to gain something out of you. (And i call them arseholes/ bastards.) -- I must admit that i'm very attracted to Wennhan's kindhearted personality, & he dotes on me a lot - there was once we were both broke i had no penny but he had like 10 bucks only so he gave me the whole 10 bucks of his assets to ensure that i have my proper lunch in school while he, penniless and can't even buy himself a 70cents mac ice cream cone! I think it's really sweet of him to do that, it touches me much :D I still remember that day in his home his mum provided me some insights on his childhood. She said that when he was 6 yrs old and still in kindergarten; one day his classmate had a fall in the playground. Being such a kind boy, small Wennhan went to help him and tried to calm his classmate down. When he couldn't stop him from crying, he cried together with him...! [Aww, so cute isn't him? I can totally imagine him doing that!] He's a rare find and it's so comforting to know that he's mine ;]
That's why if there is really a true love that lasts, i'm hoping that ours will be the one ;]
kk, that's all for today. My brother & i just discovered something which caught us laughing our asses off. These days, even the Buddhism temples are catching up with technology - tuaspekkong even tua pek kong has a website! How fab ^^ =.=" Anyway, happy discovering the hyper-link I've pasted and bye!!!!!!!~
Happy chiong-ing for hrm ppl!
