drifting apart.

Well well,tell me i'm brooding too much. Please tell me that. It just seems to me that we're drifting apart- and i mean, APART. Hais. why why? hais. aiya. Forget about it. i must must forget about all unhappy things. Just concentrate on my studies. I WILL prove that i can! jiayous!! Thanks benjamin and didi for being there for me and cheering me up my low times :) . thanks a billion! Alright. i'm going off. won't be online for a long while. Tata.

please

I'm sorry dear. well i really do know somethings' not right with you now. I just want you to take care cus i'm really worried. hais.

i'm back again!!

Back again!!. Nothing much to blog actually. Just that i realised i've become more kuku den the past. Lol. Fancy me thinking that someone is andrew when he is not. He's just a andrew-lookalike. And and, what's worse, i smiled at that person in the bus. He must have thought i'm crazy. lol. When i alighted the bus, i was so frigging embarrassed when i realised that he isn't andrew. Hahas. It's strange. Like the day bfore i dreamt of yeebin and the next day i mistooken someone for his fren. Lol. too coincidental isn't it?
And i'm so begining to find chemistry fun. 2 more months to o level. Must stick to my intensive study plan for these two months. hais. I guess i'll be super lovesick as i cannot meet him that often anymore. hais.. O level!! Let me just get over with it as soon as i can. 2 more months is little time , i should not be slacking anymore. sarah!! wake up!
I'll be going jp library with didi tmr. He's funny luh. Ask me to dress nicely- to go study. That's quite ''duh'' hehes. But anyway, i will study tmr!! Will make sure i do!
Will take care of myself derrhs my love. You too alright?!! IMISSSSSYOUUUUU!!!! =DD

okay fine. so now everyone's throwing tantrums at me and getting angry at me for no reason?! Rant at me for all you want . I'm just a stupid ger who deserves this. Damn.

sunday, 22th july.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISHWARYA!!!!! May you enjoy a very very great and joyful day tomorrow!!

 Oh gosh. I have not complete my maths homework yet. 9 more questions. ohgosh. Got to burn midnight oil today. HAISS!!

mie in mk's korean hanbor =D

in the toilet =]

ohgosh. zhihui just reminded me that there's a stats test tmr. i've clean forgotten it luhh i swear!!!

tired!!

Woah. What a long day. Very super tired eh..! Had chemistry practical and it was really fun with Miss yuen!! hehes. After chemistry, headed home. Walked the same old path to the buststop (westwood sec! ) . Halfway through, i heard whistling. It was so annoying and i didn't care at first. After some time, the sound kinda grew louder as if the person is getting nearer to me. I was sure it was some boring chap who had nothing better to do, nothing better to accomplish than stalking me. Duh. Just when i thought they were gone already, 2 guys appeared in front of me. It turned up that they used the short cut luh!! dots..


Diaos.One of the 2 westwood-ians asked for my number and i was like '' i dun have handphone!''
pointed to my pocket and replied '' deh! what is that? give me larhhs. can?
'' i was like '' cannot!''
he asked '' why? ''
i replied '' why should i give u? ''
he said '' cus i wanna be ur fren''
i said '' but i never say i wanna be ur fren?? give me a reasonable reason then i'll consider''
he said '' cus i wanna sms u later''
i said '' but i didn't say i wanna see ur sms! ''
he said '' please larhhs. ''
i said '' bu yao! cannot! ''
he said '' wah. sad le larrhs. i sad lerrhs.''
Then a group of westwoods walked towards us . The 2 guys chatted with them . i was like '' hahas. good timing. faster run!! '' lol. Anyway, they chased me larhhs. pestered me for it.
In the end,
he asked '' you sec wad? ''
i said ''oh. You guess larhs ''
he said '' sec 2? ''
i was like ''duh . i look lyk sec 2 mehh? see! i'm wearing upper sec skirt!''
he said '' orhh. sec 3? ''
i said '' diaos. no larhh! i'm older than u guys. i sec 4!! ''
he didn't believe me but anyway he gave up eventually. yAy! wahahahas. He bade goodbye to me and went off shouting ''i'm sec 5 arhs! '' I was like '' really i'm sec 4! hahas bye! ''



DUH. First time ever i rejected a guy, so SUCESSFULLY after so many attempts. HAppy happy! Shall use this method next time. hehes.
See! I'm very faithful and i took my first step. I aint afraid of strangers now. Hope my dear will not be angry hais. I can't control what they want to do, but i controlled myself and now i'm not afraid of opposing against strangers anymore. Dear!! sorry if you're angry. I tried my best. Hais. i miss you a lot a lot a lot!!!

internet connection shen jing bing larhh!

Strange internet connection. Forever signing me in and off msn. sooooo annoying! arhss. kaekae. i'd better blog now lest the connection will be lost later.Let's begin with yesterday. In the morning .... some uninteresting happened and i will not mention it . Yipee! I succeeded in jumping and got my gold. hehehes. happy happy. lalalala~ I'm a easily content girl you see. Anyway, we had a game of captain's ball during pe! It's was soooooooo great! hehes. It's been some time since i last played captain's ball , when i was primary six! lol.

Met dear around evening. hehe. lalala. i know u're reading this lorr! I miss you sweetie pie! hehes. Just love ur hugs. =XX After that, went home and tadah! that's the end of yesterday!
-_-"

Today's an ordinary day. I realised my mood swings are clinging onto me again!! It's gone worse. Far far worse than last time. I laughed out of the blue, nearly cried just now , and i ranted at people! I got so pissed off by some ridiculous friend of mine!Just Totally mad with her just now to the extent that if i was given a pen, i would draw on her face !! It wasn't because of her i got my swings. It's like, my swings just came out of a sudden and i was really very very bad and rough just now! I shouted '' can we like f***ing leave this school?!'' at liming and dionis and gang and they were like '' how can u f*** and walk at the same time? '' And i burst out laughing. lol . Walking along the fence outside school, i kicked the fence violently like a spoilt brat. It just occured to me that i should kick the fence suddenly. hais.See! i can get so rough! ohgosh. and i tried calming myself down the whole while. Ohgosh, i'm becoming insane. arhhs!! Nevermind. I shall control myself and kick my mood swings away!!! Jiayou sarah! =DD

I was so tired i almost doze off in the bus. Should do some revision and sleep early today.

Darling, jiayou! hehes. And can i mention something? lol. nah nah i think i better not mention it luhs. Later you say i'm bian tai . lol. lalalalas.

TTATATA!!

Mt o level is over!!

DEAR DIARY,



yaYS! Finally done with o level mt papers.. hehes. GOod good. !!! lalalalas. Today's listening was pretty straightforward.. Overall quite easy. hehes. But but, i really cannot stand the invigilator luh!! SHE'S SO....... ACT CUTE! lol. First glance, she looks very nerdy and witty kind. But the moment she speaks, everyone almost burst into laughters. arhs. Plus plus, i got scolded by her lehhs! Cus i forgot my entry proof at home. She said ''you all were told to bring your entry proof so why had u forgot it? So irrrrrriiiiiiiiittaaaaatttttiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnggggggg. (irritating) .. " diaos. i was calming myself down when i heard that '' relax. i'm angry.. nono. im not.. nono..'' lol.



What a tired day. Slept super late ytd around 2plus 3 as i was chatting with my jiejie. Now i'm like so tired i could faint. hahas. i wanna orh orh lerrhs! shall sleep early today :DD hehes. tick me off if i insist on sleeping late . thankkies. hehes. lalalas. i think i'm mad. Obviously nobody know about my new url and here i am, asking ppl to tick me off. hahas. It's like asking my blog to scold me. lol. lai, lai , scold me! hahas.pardon me for sounding insane. =X i'm just a lil' over the moon today. It's like i've finally abandoned a burden that i had been carrying along with me. The feeling is great, fabulous! hehes.



Lalalala. I hate this internet connection! signing me in and out msn continuously. Even if my friends are not annoyed by it, i am! hahas. Furthermore ,i was writing my friend a testimomo but when i clicked submit, the connection was lost.
That's all i'm gonna type today. ttata!



sometimes i wish i am
as innocent as a raindrop.
if i am one,
i can just cry whenever i want,
Land on someone's shoulder.
It doesn't matter who or what,
as all i want is to be accepted and loved by them.
If i am one,
i can be hidden from this reality,
no more troubles.
If i am one,
i can be the girl's companion.
At least i'll allow them to be weak and cry all they want.
If i am one,
i would be happy,
because children will play with me.
If i am a raindrop
i'll be oh, so carefree.

But somehow or rather,
i wish to be a tear in your eyes.
I'll appear only when you are sad,
i'll be with you through your hard times,
Never ever leave you to be alone in misery.
i'm sorry that's all i can do,
I wish to turn your mundane day into a colourful day.
But afterall, i'm still a tear who appears only in times of misery.
So,if i am a tear, i'll not appear again when you're fine.
That's when i know you are happy, and what i pray for you to be.
That's when i know i would leave you without worries with a smile on my face.

Just thought of a poem which sounded like this. These are the words.

backk.

Changed my blog address. I just feel that i really do not want many people to start knowing things that i would never expect them to know..? I may sound rude but many times i was astonished by people surprising me questions related to my personal life,and i mean very related. Hahas.
Yesterday wasn't a brilliant day. Dated: Friday, 13th. It's always this date that bad things happen. So freaky. Met him yesterday. I so seriously wish i didn't insist on having a look at that piece of paper. Somehow, because of my witfulness, i made a mess of the whole thing and ruined our day. Well actually, when i saw that sheet of paper i was truly shocked and totally in loss for words. I tried to act as if i didn't see anything and that i didn't care a heck about it but eventually he saw through me. I wasn't sure what i was feeling at that moment too. To say i was jealous , is not really that way. To say i was angry, nono. i wasn't. Maybe, maybe, I was just envious of that particular girl?? I do admit i hope the name on that sheet of paper is mine, not anyone else. He showed me a slideshow made by her and told me everything's over between them. Yup, over. And he showed me a photo of hers . So, how in the world should i have reacted? I didn't know. I was totally surprised and confused why did he show me her photo? i was like ''eh. why u tel me all these? ''. Anyway, while watching the slideshow he made, i saw tears in his eyes. TEARS. At that moment, i saw hurt, sorrows, and pure misery in his eyes-just like how i used to wail because of yeebin.
I somehow knew i made him crestfallen . I felt very guilty and bad and envious and at complete loss what to do. I knew he can't forget her totally and i felt like a substitute. Real one. I really hate this feeling.
Sometimes when i dun say it out, it doesn't mean i dun mind it. Sometimes when i mind it, it doesn't mean i must say it out. You love her, yepps. I got it. So, that's how u tell me u love me-by letting me feel i'm a silly willy substitute of her. hais.

chiong larrhs~

Study study STUDY! Go sarah! Be determined to get what you want, just like how you used motivated yourself to do funny stuff for guys? Arhs. Just shift the same old determine-ness to the new goal you set. You are not competing against pioneers , but competing against the few millions of graduating students taking their examinations this year!!! Get that in your mind !. Everyone's preparing themselves for the exams but not me. Hais. Should really start larhhs! They are scoring good grades for their prelim one already and look at me, how prepared am i? Duh. If not prepared is being prepared then i'm really prepared i guess. 3 more months , just ENDURE! Set aside other matters first..?
Anyway, i'm not going be online til o level ends. =D There's a promise to myself!! And and, please do not hesitate to reprimand me if i start to procrastinate and treat studies easily again. I need time to adapt !!!
Just the same as my starting board jump. I must really admit i am very very very ultra lousy at my standing board jump! Can't seem to understand why though. It's like something's stopping me from reaching my goal? Duh. kkies, nevermindd. I'm sarah, remember? I WILL WILL prove that i can jump! Wait and see, people. tahahas.



Just smile and everything's gonna be alright. =D
Jiayou sarah! Believe in yourself and do your best !! You can you can!!

results!

Totally DISGUSTED by my results for prelim ONE.

Anyway, i will not give up ! I'll chiong til the end!!! 3 more months and i will not let my results affect me . Nono. Since i didn't study, it wasn't that bad afterall. Let see how it goes for prelim two.
Looking forward to friday :]] Miss you so loadss boy. !! Wee. :]]

Let's conquer Olevel together!!! hehes.

Adam khoo workshop!!

ADAM khooooo day!!! LOL. Turned up in school today and found out that we actually have Adam khoo workshop today!!!! Lai, lai motivate me!! lol. As expected, our instructor is none other than Amin the pervert. LOL. He's so comical i couldn't help but burst into laughters . See, now you will understand why i rather have the workshop than normal school day. hee. He allowed us to watch a film : law of attraction. (It's quite a sophisicated subject) Lol. But but, the film is really nice and very meaningful i think. Yup yup.
During our break, we went to the canteen and drown a croakcoach. Hahas. The croakcoach is like so poor thing lehh. At first, xueqi accidentally kicked it and it was struggling with its back spinning on the floor (like a tortoise! hehes) Den wanny and dionis the two evil threw ice on it. The croach was having a really tough time struggling you see. hahas. We went back to AVA theatre and continued our lecture. Kekeks. Learnt a few techniques of planning my work afterwhich we were dismissed. However, before we were dismissed Amin played a game with us. Super cunning and tricky him! The game was like this : Look carefully at the instructions given and give him what he requires to win.
Eg. 1) stuff pens into a friend's pocket.
2) Use shoelaces and make a long lace (as long as possible)
3) .......
LASTLY,
TO WIN, come to the front with your group members and write your name on the whiteboard.

Anyway, i couldn't see clearly anything on the screen so i did whatever sheila ans xueqi did. Lol. They stuff pen, i also stuff. LOL. lalala ~
We were so dumb leh. We rreally untied our shoes and came up with many humourous stuff he 'wants'. In the end he said :''I'm so sad for you all. Sec 4 and only 3 grps listen to my instructions. I said 'to win, come to the front and write your name only what! What are all of you doing??!!'' Diaos!! Got it? We were like ''-_-" where got liddat !!! cheat leh him! lol. '' It was a silly mistake although we had fun doing!! hehes. See! In the end, we ended up with different laces on our shoes. LOL.

Alrights anyway, i have to go lerrhs. Hais. Got a feeling my mum's trying to control me again. Hate it larhhs!

wee.

Blog that is not updated for days. Many things happened these few days. And i reckon they're positive things? Hehe. Yupps. It's too long-winded for me to type everything down in details and i suppose my hits will stop increasing if i do that? LOl. Alright so if anyone is interested to know what happened then consult me bahs. kekekes.
Finally finished watching weixiao pasta!! Hehes. It's so nice. xiao wu gui =D . Must watch people!! hehes. Yuppies. Just went to Bpp's cafe cartel to have my dinner with family.. Hehe the food is great luh. Lol. See! I can feel my weight increasing le.. ''Sarah, don't be lazy! Gym those calories away!!!'' sarah says: '' Alrite, i guess i should go to the gym tomorrow den. '' Lol. Look, how bored can i get? lol. hahas.
070707- wee! remember this date =D
Alrights. gg off. Ta people.








*cross fingers* let him get well soon !
Hais. Must must takecare of yourself kays?!! <33>

Friday :]]

Nothing much to say today. Just hope that i'll recover by tomorrow!! Hais.so suay me :[ *cross fingers* sobsob. Hmm. yupps. I'll go rest kaes tata.







please let me recover tomorrow :]
*sorry for my heck attitude =X

Nuh.

Pathetic me.

When will i ever learn to take things down my stride? If i will, i'll be happier. Hais.

Alright. I shall forget all things that will make me crestfallen. :DD. Well, went to nuh for the appointment today. Was late as ever. My tardy habit is deterioating. LOL. Must change it larhh! hahas. Anyway, went for a jab. It was painful as expected but hmm i've had a few so i kinda got used to it. While walking out of the clinic , i was greeted by a man. Out of the blue he walked up to me and said ''hii''. I was like ''eh?? '' Then i hurried my way out. Siao arh. I'm so curious why there are so many sot sot people in singapore. lol. While waiting for the mrt, there was a guy who is so tico!. He kept looking at me head to toe in a super irritating and lecherous way. Duh. I was playing hide and seek in the mrt with him. The moment he is near me, i walk to the other far end.LOL. Very comical. hahas. Anyway, i went to lot one and grabbed my stuff before going home. Teehee. i still want to emphasize that there are many cute hunks in JC!! hee.

By the way, i found out that weibin look like 'ah ze' . The ah ze from wei xiao pasta. Hee. He's so hip larh. Hehe.. Wei xiao pasta just brighten up my day :)) Heehee. I'm so... not looking forward to weekend. Because i know i'll get forlorn just by thinking about it. Nvm sarah . xiao yi xiao mei shen me shi shi jie jue bu liao de :DD Jiayou!!

Iloveyoghurts!

pens off here, tata !

像断了线

消失人海里面

我的眼终于失去 你的脸

再等一会

奢望流星会出现

愿~如果真的实现爱

能不能永远

明天

或许来不及变

但曾经走过的昨天

越来越远

北极星的眼泪

说不出的想念

原来我们活在

两个世界

北极星的眼泪

你哭红的双眼

被淋湿的诺言

淹没在心里面

我抬头看着

爱不见

再等一会

奢望流星会出现

愿~如果真的实现爱

能不能永远

明天

或许来不及变

但曾经走过的昨天

越来越远

北极星的眼泪

说不出的想念

原来我们活在

两个世界

北极星的眼泪

你哭红的双眼

被淋湿的诺言

淹没在心里面

我抬头看着

爱不见

当对的人

等不到对的时间

就在放放开手的瞬间

爱撕成两边

北极星的眼泪

说不出的想念

原来我们活在

两个世界

北极星的眼泪

你哭红的双眼

被淋湿的诺言

淹没在心里面

我抬头看着爱

不见

整个宇宙

都流眼泪

ilovethesmellofmorningdew.

I am really very worried about you. I wish i didn't know about your problems.So i will not feel so vulnerable , hurt and stupid of myself. If you didn't tell me about your problem, you wouldn't ask me to forget you. I hate to hear you say that. You know, nothing hurts more than you saying that. The pain is beyond words. I will always be there for you, be behind you all the time although i cannot find a solution to your problems. I will be your listening ear when you need someone to talk to, i'll be your precious tears so even if you cry , i am close to you . I will be your sandbag if you need someone to rant at. Just tell me when you need me. I will hurry right beside you and make you understand that you are never alone. I'll shower you with lots of love , listen to all your sorrows, let you have my shoulder to lean , dry your tears and be your embracing pillow. I will make you know that for once in your life, you can be the weakest. Lastly, i'll blow a lot of balloons and fill them with your troubles. The balloons shall carry your sorrows to the sky and leave you alone. I love you, my dear boy. I do not know what more can or should i say. I just want you to take care of yourself alrights? Be calm, i still believe that there's always a solution to every problems, it's just that you have not found it yet.

prelim one last paper.

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

Today's the last paper for prelim one. So, as sheila aiai said, we can play a lil' lil bit. Wee. Today's just another ordinary day. Having unstable emotions -_-''

Well, i'm watching the taiwan drama : wei xiao pasta. Hee.A Very uber humourous drama series. And i will recommend it for drama lovers =]] . I must admit Nicholas look good in that show!! He's cool luh. Very 'hip' leh. Ohgosh. A drama that will make you go '' Aww. so sweet, lovely!!. '' :D

Erm. kiinda having mood swings again i suppose. Just not in the right mood anymore. So, i will just end here. tata.

I'm perplexed.

Guide me through, will you?

lalalala

WEE!!! I'm here again. Hee. I'm always this excited when it comes to blogging. Teehee.



Did maths p2 and bio p2 today.

Papers were pretty moderate and hmm i did them all. hee.

In school, i was molested. LOL. There's this malay sec 5 guy(i'm not sure his name) who ACCIDENTALLY hit me. I was walking past him , with him back-facing me . I didn't know he would raise his hand behind eh. I wonder what he's up to also. He rise his hand and hit my ahem larh. I was like ''oh gosh. hen paiseh lehh.'' I think i blushed like a tomato just now. eeewww. So...embarrassing!!! 'And his friends bursted out laughing while he kept apologising. ohgosh. mei lian jian ren =XXXXXXX.



Lalala~ i'm feeling hyper today. hehe. That kuku weeliang luh! Hmpf! honey you always lie to me de uh! Ask me bring along gym outfit in the end didn't go gym . kuku '' u. lol. Bad bad! Bu gen ni hao le! hmppppppppppppffffffff.



Anyway, after the papers we went to the library. Actually i wanted to go workout de.. But all because of that weeliang luh! Everytime like that de. Next time i go myself le larhh. lol. In the library, i practically slacked there. Tomorrow's the last paper! hooray!!! heheehe. Will be dismissed early at 9++!! hehe.



Since i'm feeling so tiresome, might as well type some unrelated stuff down :

10 things the leiidii always do & loves doing.
1. Staring blankly while talking to her peeps.
2. Screaming at the sight of an duper cute strawberry object.
3. Play with people by scolding them ''kuku'' and ''ahneh'' (lol).
4. Flip open and close her phone when waiting for sms.
5. Take truckloads of pictures.
6. Jump around like mad.
7. Buy lots and lots of strawberries and stuff and stare at them.
8. Eat tomatoes.
9. Pokes people's cheek (teehee.they are cute!)
10. sms him.

You Sometimes Don't Get Enough Sleep

You're often more tired than you'd like, and you're probably not getting enough quality sleep.Sleeping a little more could make you a lot more energetic and happy.Try having a bedtime, keep your bedroom cool, and only eat fruit before bed.

http://www.blogthings.com/doyougetenoughsleepquiz/">Do You Get Enough Sleep?

Okay basically, that's all for today!! Ta people!


Just love playing around with you.
my sweetie pie. =D