MIA

Duhduhduh!
I think i should learn from you;
ignoring my messages;
Unable to get you ;
Not even a single message from you;
Well, i wonder
"What's wrong with you? Is this your way of expressing your love for me? "
I'm getting doubts and thinking twice about our relationship & your words.
Maybe it's just like how my mum said.
This isn't the first time.
I'm going bonkers , it hurts you know?
IT FUCKING HURTS WHEN YOU IGNORE ME AND GET ALONE WITH YOUR OWN STUFF. IT FUCKING HURTS WHEN YOU FORGET ME AND DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO SEND A MESSAGE.
IT FUCKING HURTS WHEN THERE'S NO TRACE OF YOU WHICH GETS ME WORRIED SICK. DO YOU WANT TO KNOW HOW IT FEELS??
i think i will go MIA for some time and see how you suffer? Then you will understand how hurt i am now.






left here
crestfallen;
disappointed;
lovesick;
& hurt ;

sarah ): T.T

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7 things you'll like to say to 7 different people, but will never.

1) You think that you're always right. Are you? You dislike indecisive people , but do you know you're indecisive too?? Sometimes from your actions, i can see that you are jealous and that you hate me. Well, i just feel that sometimes you're too inconsiderate and sarcastic. Like criticizing passerbys on their appearance. You've changed. I've tried my best in maintaining a friendship with you which was to no avail. But nonetheless, i'll cherish the good times we once had in school.

2) I'm sorry i once hurt you so badly. Sometimes i feel you deserve someone better , which you didn't cherish. I have this feeling all the time that within you and me, there's no friendship but only competition. I can feel that you're trying to compete with me all the time, even now when we've already graduated. However, i've never thought this way. I only want to apologise to you for my past wrongdoings & let you know that i've never meant for it to happen. I was just too silly and emotional that time.


3) I really appreciate you for who you are. You know I've always treat you as my best friend of a decade although we used to quarrel and compete with each other academically. We've all grown up and is going on separate ways now. I hope we'll still be best of friends no matter where we are and think of each other like true friends. You deserve to have your prince with you. ((:


4) I totally loathe you to the core. You gave me a few months of happiness once and left me in the lurch just like that. You made me realise that guys like you are nothing but lies. I feel so stupid doing silly things that time while i still love you and i wonder what attracted me to you. I want to smack your head with a hard stone and slap you hard . You're so childish, so blatant, so cruel. You are the one who shook me awake that you are the one who lost something precious , not me losing anything. You are better off dead, i'm serious.


5) I'm wishing you and your family all the best. Because of you, my grades improved so much that i could cope in secondary school. I really miss the days when you treated us to kfc after tution and encourage us on our academic pathways. THANK YOU. I hope that you and your family will be free as i would like to drop by and visit your family . ((:


6) I don't like the change in you. I don't like it when you get so busy with your life that you no longer hangs up often with me. I don't like it. I want to joke with you and get to know what's happening in your life again. I really treat you as my best friend that i want to keep for life. We're going different schools and i guess i would miss you loads. Hope that we'll meet up every month to catch up with each other.


7) I really want to last long with you. I want to marry you. I want to wake up each morning with you by my side. You really made a great impact on my life. Because of you, i've become so dependent that i can't do without you. I love you stroking my hair to sleep. I love the way your mesmerizing eyes lock with mine . I need you. Just one day of not seeing you makes my heart ache . You're so sweet , you're like my lollipop. hehehe. Now, i miss you so much. I miss your hug. I miss your kisses. I miss your everything. I have this indescribable crush on you that grows stronger each time we part. Every time we part, i feel so vulnerable and reluctant to let go. Oh. I think it's the crush that fooling around making my possession of you grow stronger. I love your curry. I love the smell of you. I love you.


This is a random entry. Anyway, I'm stucked at home the whole day today all thanks to my stupid cramps. DUH.
And Oh , this is a video that is really meaningful and unforgettable. It's so touching. Everyone should watch it.







annyung ikah seyo!! ((:

I've decided to join make-up artiste & dance club;
exhilarated yet afraid to attend polytechnic;
happy that ny lappie will be delivered soon ;
I love to lie on hubby's lap and sleep;
I miss hubby )):
AND,
i hate the call from mother nature
that's giving me unbearable cramps;
- taking away my mood to blog.
Damn.

Vivo ci - teeee!!!!!!!!!!!!

VIVO CI-TEE!!!

Yeaps, the title says it all. I went on a trip to Vivo yesterday with darling ! ((: Loads of interesting things we saw & took tons of photos. Teeheehee. xP

We bought the tickets for the movie Rule # 1 which was showing on 6.45 pm and went to shop around. We went to the outdoor for some air and to kill time because we were so bored. Hahaha. We were standing here :

Strange kid who ran past me =.="

Then we looked down and saw this : the little kids riding their ponies! hahahaha! I wanted to ride too!! But i was already overgrown as a kid )): LOL. The way they rode was so adorable that we couldn't stop giggling !!1

Cute!

the lighting was so bright my eyes looked dopey!!! )):

Taking pictures ~love~ ((:

LAlalala.

i like this one!!! The wind made his hair swing like we're taking photo workshop pics`

The ER XIN; CRAZY; SARAH SAN LIAN BAI!

#1

#2#3

fishballs anyone? LOL.

He's acting cute luhs..

i look so strange here.
Nah, far from being emo .

Then we headed toys r us and i acted like a small kid playing around with the toys. hahahaha. So fun!

Princess SARAH!! :D

Picturess

Pictures - filled entry ((:


These pictures were taken few days ago on our trip to bugis when i bought a whole loads of things. ahhahahaas. Everyone's going on separate ways with different goals now. It's so hard meeting up with them in future i know. I'm so going to MISS them loadds. )):

By the way, i'm putting my life at a difficult position by uploading these photos. LOL. Because jiahui insisted that if i upload them, our 10 yrs friendship would be at risk. oh-oh. Jiahui, you didn't see the photos here did u?! hahas. xP

Anyway, step up 2 : the streets is an excellent dance movie i must say ; ignoring the critics the people gave. I don't understand which part of the movie is not up to standard like what people rated. I mean like seriously, i think it's like better than step up 1? The dance moves and all??

Dear, I MISS YOU;
I NEED YOU HERE WITH ME ;
I WANT TO EMBRACE YOU THROUGH THE NIGHT;
YOU"RE MY ONLY LOVE ((:

me, jiahui aiai , joanne aiai!

this fashion's dress. nice? ((:

or the brown one?

the jumper i bought :D

loves them !!!!! (:

Pissed off!

16th March2008

I met up with sheila, weeliang, daphni, jasper and gang to collect my o level certificate. After the collection, we went to gp to have our lunch. Missed dining with them !! (wee liang even said we used to be in sch u here but now we're all in home apparels - so true! )

Daphni and i then headed Ngee Ann Poly to get her colour vision test done before we went cityhall to look for sheila and people. Actually wanted to have a look at the laptop offers at funan the it mall but in the end we were in Suntec city watching Step up 2 : the street. Had a tiff with hubby and was uber vexed over some financial problems so they had to comfort me. Thanks a lot my loves!!! I'm gonna miss you all loadds loadds loadds .
We shall meet up once every month okayss? That's our promise ! ((:

I left after the movie to fetch dearie and for some reasons, we sort of argued. All because of this laydee named XUEQI. I hope she reads my blog man, i'm advertising her now for the good things she did. See. I'm so good. "Don't say i'm guai lan. I speak to you nicely and all unlike how other girls would react. We could be friends too. If you're really unhappy, tell me & come find me. Seriously, i don't give a damn to people like you. Imposing other girls' bf when you know they're already attached. Are you that blatant? Are you so attracted to him? Duh. I'm speechless. (p/s : not that pioneer sec xueqi )

It was like that :

Dearie told me her wanted to help his fren do something that day . I questioned him who he's helping but to no avail. In the mrt, he told me that xq asked him to help her with something after he knocked off. He let me see the messages that she sent and told me he accompanied her to dabao lunch earlier in the afternoon when she kept hinting her saying that she wants to woo him. I was like "=.=" Just at this moment, she called. I picked up .
She : " hello may i speak to wenn han ?"
ME : " Wei, oh. He's not around "
she : " okay, can u ask him to call me later? "
ME : " okays. "
she : " bye"
Me : "byebye" ( in a friendly tone )

After a while an unknown number called . Hubby picked up and apologised to her that he could not help her anymore. Okays. I didn't say anything. 20 mins later , a message arrived that dear read. (i did not know what this message is about at first)
Before we went for the movie, dear let me see the message.

She "wahs. ure gf sibeh guailan lo"

I was like " duhduhduhdudhduhudhd!!!!!!!! Wth ! "
So i messaged liming to whine. Lol. Hubby thought i was replying her, he was very scared that i would reply her. I thought :" DUH! who wants to entertain her siax?! Don't message don't message lorrhs! "
I was bottling the whole anger inside me throughout the whole movie. After the movie i could not take it anymore and flared up.
"she said i guailan, please lor. I talked to her nicely lehhs. She bu shuang de hua ask her to call me. We'll see who's the guailan one. "
I think hubby was very shocked that i spoke this way and he was smiling all the way. () He claimed this proved i love him a lot .

DUH!

In the end , i finally pried him and discovered that he actually defended me.
Me : " Ur gf like that being bullied you also don't care de lorhs! "
Him :" ey. I replied her "you don't guai lan hor. qian da arhs? "

Anyway, everthing was resolved in the end.
Hubby came up as usual and left for work early in the morning .


The end! ((:

Crazy day ? LOL.

! Warning: Ultra long entry ((:


Today's a special day :
REASON BEING : med checkup day at woodlands sata.
LOL. I still insists that it's a troublesome thing to do ((:
Firstly, there were a lot of polytechnic students squeezing the whole clinic fighting for air (LOL!).
Secondly, i had to be stared at by strangers
Thirdly, i realised i've gained weight!
OH! How depressing is this??! I'm sad , should start on my anaeraxic diet soon. xP
& it's annoying how the other students look at me (urgh! I'm human too right? Dots. esp the guys. crazy people. )



Settled my school fees ; cpf and medical checkup matters before heading to Quickbite to collect my salary. Don't ask me the amount, ask me the effort. Lol. I visited the bank, dropped my cheque in the cheque box and realised i could only take out my $$ on friday when my poly appt is on thurs. Oh, whatever! Who's going to sponsor me $$ to buy a notebook? Duh. I hate being penniless. I hate spending dearie's money like a spoilt brat who doesn't know how hard he worked for that pitiful(he claimed) amount of salary he gets every month. Sometimes i feel so guilty when he pampers me and showers me with loads of gifts. & sometimes, i feel so ANNOYED & ANGRY at myself for not taking care of the gifts he gave :
Like the limited edition mascara box set he bought me. It was as if i've been stabbed umpteen times right through my heart when it broke. FUCK. I'm going to super glue it back larrhs!! )):
Fuck fuck fuck. I HATE THIS FEELING. IT'S LIKE A PART OF ME HAS JUST BEEN RIPPED OFF. Dearie still mentioned that it's alright, damn it isn't! I would have rather he scolded me. SIGHs. (sorry for the vuglarities, just this once ? =X )



Back to the story, i reached the bank and it was raining cats and dogs when i settled everything. Such a hassle to walk in the rain with my favourite bag , acting like a stupid kuku who's trying all means to protect her bag from the rain. Lol. I had a chat with my collegues and decided to start work again next monday ((: I need money! hahahahas.



Reached home after the shop for groceries with mum and called Darling. He sounded weird-keep putting 'my gandi' in his lips. Didn't sound eager at all to speak to me & there were many awkward silence scenes. Duh . Finally i hung the phone and he sent me this message :"wah. i love u la jie! lol!" Sent by lm. Dots. Then i remembered - there was a time i (i mean we) did him a favour by waiting for him to have dinner ; he was ultra grateful so he sent me that in a joking manner and that time i was using dearie's phone for some reasons so it was saved in his phone. He must have been going through his message inbox when he saw that and allowed jealousy to attack? Aww. I hate misunderstandings like this. Tried very hard to please him and explain to him - I'm so glad he understood. He jus sent me this message that kept me smiling ear to ear : " XXXXXXXXXX Honey, i love you, u'r my only one. " HEHEHEHE! So... SWEET! LOVE HIM TO BITS AND PIECES !!



Well, tomorrow i'll be heading town with joanne and jiahui lovers! Miss them like hell loads! i'll be cooking pasta for dinner for my family and him! Winks! yay! He's coming up again~~ Wee! Exhilarated about tomorrow's events!

& i'm back with a new skin! [=

Hellos! Ages since i last blog. hahahas! I've been rather busy these few days - ( you know, catching up with my friends & hubby.) Hehehes. Anyway, i've quitted full time of my job at quickbite and i'll be returning as a part time soon (although i do not want to )): hehes.


Darling came over to find me today and we went to rent movies , getting stucked at home the whole day. He bought a lot of junkies too ! hahas. I'm gaining weight larhhs!!!! To the gym please!!
So We Watched movies ; fooled around and now it's midnight. Sighs. Time flies so past. Dearie have to work tomorrow , i'm so unwilling for him to attend work. =(( As that means i can't keep him accompany tomorrow. hais. He's asleep now on my bed. hahahas.

Andohya, that day i went out with fides - to vivo city and tried on some apparels that i like~ Like the high waist cut skirt. Omg. Those are my loves! hehes. And the other time we went to bugis - in search of a vest and a long sleeves polo for dearie. Thanks fides for accompanying me ((: I'm so missing you right now! Yoshinoya please??! hehes. Here are the pictures :

how's this red dress?? ((:


i love love love high waist skirt!!


This is a plain tube dress. Quite common too.

Yesterday, i went out with dearie. We were in the mrt seated and beside us were a lady carrying a toodle. And you know what? She's so damn adorable!! She was peeping at dearie, learning and demonstrating everything that dearie did. Hahaha. I guess she thought he was strange! hahas.

We went to novena to collect his salary before heading elsewhere. (it was not a good lovey dovey day at the begining though ))= ) We waited for like 45mins for his manager to be ready with the cheque? Dots. Wasted our time .

hahaha. The banner says it all . lols.

this is hubby in the top i bought ; he claims it's not his style. How sad!

By the way, how is my new blogskin?? I need comments! :D I know it's plain & simple - please understand that this blog is currently still under construction ((: hehehes.
Singapore poly sent me the enrolment package and i've got an appointment with them for matriculation & stuff on 13th march!! Any companions?? And ya, anyone knows who's in the same course & school as me??? Til now, i haven't meet any. )): Poly's starting on early april. Oh! How exciting! ((: I'm so looking forward to it. hehehehs.

And Hubby and i are not going malaysia for vacation anymore. I'm kinda disappointed but it's alright, it isn't any big deal right?? [=

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我没有旦多想；
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