I need to grow up

People people ; i'm no longer that depressed about hubby's departure. (at least for now ) I should learn to grow up and be independent. Hubby will be doing his reservice in malaysia and meanwhile, i shall keep myself really busy. (to avoid the emo me)

So so, anyone need me to teach them anything? (as in secondary school/primary school stuff Hehs) Or or, please please book me out to gaigai orhs! :D I'm going to find more part time jobs and earn more money to take up classes :D

I'm so gonna miss my baby loads. Very Very much ): Miss his warm embrace through the coldest nights ; miss his sweetest scented kisses ; miss his crazy and enthu moments; miss his lame jokes; miss his fierce mad-ness ; miss his romantic sweet-talks ;(aiya, basically miss him many many many!!) Hees. I love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Treat this as our obstacles; to proof that out relationship is but everlasting mutual love for each other. TILL DEATH DO US PART. ((:

ANyway, i keep seeing adorable babies in the MRT these days; oh. So swweet and cute !! :DD I like~ Taking pictures of them w/o permission. haha. opps!

i'm going to upload more pictures and more interesting reads soon.
Well, till then people!
Gonna meet dadadaa tomorrow! YAY! LOVE HIM SO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHH

p/s : i was influenced by jingqi lover thus i felt like using lime green as the font color! *grins*

What should i do.

I'm really crestfallen. I just heard the news : Someone dearest ( dearest dearest dearest) to me is leaving Singapore for 3 months and will come back only by then.

What is left to be done when all i have is 3 days? Less than 48 hours.

Or rather, what will you do if all you had with your lover was less then 48 hours? I've got so much to whine, i've got too much to say; i've got too much to think ; i've got so many things to do with you ):

It just breaks my heart. To hear you saying that you're leaving me for 3 months. Please don't say 3 months, even 3 days are too much for me to bear. Oh. what am i going to do without you by my side? Cheering me up through my forlorn times ? Providing me with your tender care and concern? Pampering me like a spoilt brat? I feel so lost. But what can i say.?

I promise you baby; i'll be the same old me waiting for you right here 3 months after. I give you my word that i will study really hard & achieve better results like you would like me to. (: Don't worry for me ; i'll be fine. But please ; take care of yourself T.T I would miss you ; i really will. In fact; i'm missing you like nothing else now. I LOVE YOU.

You know what my dear? When you told me that ; it was as if i was stabbed in the heart ; tears came rolling down my cheeks as if there's no tomorrow. I'm losing all my control. I really am. I'm in sorrows. Just because i love you so much ; i'm so unwilling to let you go.

This is the first time i'm feeling this way : A mixture of unwillingness and pain . It's torturing. I know that i'm going to miss you so much ; longing for you all the time. I would be ; promise.

I guess all i have now is my friends and family . I would rely greatly on them i suppose. If they're aren't gonna be by my side; I believe i would fall and never get up again.

Baby ; i'm sorry. I told you i wouldn't cry but i all can do now is to bewail. I can't even control myself. It just tears my heart apart.

我爱你; 我们三个月后见

不关你用多久;我也只要你当我的仗夫

我会等你;请你相信我.

)):

:'(

people;

Itb exam was oh-em-gee not-managable today . Sigh. Blame it on my useless brain ; sucking at computer stuff. Sigh. I'm only only super guilty and feel very bad that Mr William tan14946 is such a kind teacher, puting in so much effort to help us and yet me; being such an irresposible kid , didn't even bother to ask. No effort = No remarkable results. It's just like economics - No input ( fixed and variable ) = No output/revenue/profit.
)): I'm CERTAIN i will flunk it ; and it's that kind of super low marks ( cus i left out the whole section C consisting of 50% of the whole paper ) DEPRESSED. ):
I suck at info-tech. I suck at excel. I suck at using the world's most clever technology.
T.T

Okays anyway, tuition lesson today was managable ; it was kinda enjoyable anyway. lol.
i like~~
So many things to tell my bebe, So little opportunities. ):
i'm feeling ultra random today.
i'm feeling uber sad today.
i'm feeling so moody today.
i'm feeling not at all alright today;
i'm seeing signs of the notorious me (i detest!) ;
i'm Happy UNHAPPY.
i think i caught a cold today.
i'm feeling so cold now .
I'm yearning for a warm embrace ;
and a warm cup of milo please?
T.T

Seeing so many love songs nowadays reminds me of the romantic and meticulous Sarah.
I'm so tempted to stare blankly at the wall now ; get my head to spin faster ;
come out with some love poems and jot it down. ):

我不快乐;你晓得嘛宝贝?

我就是那么自私;

我需要你关心我;

我要你给予我鼓励

我不想自己一天一天地度过;

等着时间一秒一妙的过去;

而我却自己待在一旁忧郁;

阻止不到你.

我要你知道;

我好粘你;

我就是喜欢跟着你;

我就是要这样坏蛋的拈着你;

这就是我对爱的直着

i love my bfbfbfbffbfbfbbfbfbfbfbfbbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbbfbfbfb

fbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbf X 1 MILLION! He is my lovely baby hubby!

Bad day, period.

And you had a bad day, take it one down. Sing a sad song and you turn it around ; say you don't go tell me don't lie...... Yadah yadah yadah. And because my day was so saddening, i was hearing daniel powter's bad day in my head the whole day. )): I'm.... feeling blue. Today's a mundane day. To put it simply, a bad day . )):
Let's see some pictures i took during the ECP trip with dadada and margaret before i starting ranting at how my day is. :D

And i left my heart-felt words on the sands.

Do we look alike? She's an irritating yet adorable chap =.="

Nanana lover said i look like a model here, Firman complimented saying i look chio :DD lol!

All hair to the back with my shades (: Looks a teeny weeny kiddish.

Sometimes i wonder why girls like to do this . But everytime i ask myself why, i just do it over again. [=

i think i look alien-ish here. haha!

The two skinnies. Eeeww. Why ain't i skinnier? ):

The short skinny. Hahaha. Fooling around in my shades.

okays, i know what you're going to say. My eye-bags are totally hideous. T.T

i'm not at all satisfied with my tan look, SENTOSA this saturday; YAY!

That's probably the pictures i have for the time being. So now, i'm gonna start grumbling about whatever shitty happened today.

WARNING : If for whatever reasons, you're planning to have your dinner/lunch/breakfast after reading my blog ; then i advise you people not to scroll down (: There isn't any pretty sight. AT ALL. It's horrifying. )):

Yuppies, So i went to school as usual today ; slipped on my casual casual lil miss naughty tee and a skirt. I was so exhausted, prolly due to lack of sleep. Boarded the train ; reached MLT 8 and awaited for my friends. So so, As i was daydreaming, i took a step forward and realised it's a relatively high step. Me, being such a kuku nehneh geek, was shocked and almost screamed. (S-C-R-E-A-M)

Then my lovers / friends came, we went into MLT 8 ; had our PACC lesson and i left alone to the photocopy shop to get my stuff done. It was around noon and T21 was at it's BUSIER time ( meaning, Super crowded and packed with peepos ) . I past the vending machine, took a step up ; another and an ultra loud *BAM !* was heard. Pathetic and poor me landed flatly on the stairs. With - my lappie and my bulky huge tote bag. And i was ALONE. As i mentioned it was PACKED, people behind me (i suppose) were staring at me and i heard someone said :"oh my goD! ouch! " I was so embarrased i wished i could dig a hole on the ground and hide my face in. So immediately, i stood up and continued walking - pretending that i was alright; pretending that it doesn't hurt a lil wee bit at all.

I reached the shop, switched on my lappie ; logged in to mysas and realised that my study aids application form was removed. There was no way i could get the hardcopy anymore. )): In addition to my pitiful plight, my head was spinning around going in circles and i was so giddy i had a short blackout. I was ALONE, so i just leaned onto the wall hoping everything will recover sooon. Luckily for me, it did. But nonetheless, i was feeling moody the whole day. I sprained my knee. I hurt my knee. It hurts so badly that i couldn't even squat down and do my business (if you know what i mean ) T.T When i finally forced it down, tears came rolling down my cheeks. (you may be saying * ouch * now, and yeah, there was how badly my knee hurt. Not because of the superficial wound but the physical wound. I sprained my knee, that's why. Here's a picture of how horrifying it looked. ): T.T

I'm having itb CA exam tomorrow and guess what? Now, i have neither the mood or the windows excel 2003 programme to practise and prepare for it. Heck, i think i'm gonna do whatever i can tomorrow and pray that it's an easy paper. Or else, i'll flunk it diasastrously. No mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood no mood super MOODLESS!

The only mood i have now is to stare at my statistics Question paper ; interpret the questions and attempt to do it. Duh . It's forever one of my favourite e-maths topic. [=

Anyway, here's all i'll have for today. :D

Do Stay with me for more pleasure for the eyes, and the ears!

Before i actually leave, allow me to express my gratitude for ling! Hahaha! Velvelvelvelvelyn! Thanks ah! Ling! haha. We're both ling, how exciting. lol.

TATATATATA!

p/s, all the best to my tuition tomorrow yeah ! :D

ECP trip :D

Weehees! I actually skipped school yesterday ( Eh uh, Don't start reprimanding me because i was really sick *headaches and running nose )
But anyway, i still managed to head down ECP with dadada and margaret (which fyi is, my lil sister ) Hahas. It was so fun and tiring (:
We played roller skates , rode bicycles and played at the beach. hahhahas. I was so afraid i couldn't balance at first when i wore the skates but it turned out that it's pretty easy to balance and rollerblade with it. hahas . Prolly due to it being the 2nd time i'm using it. hahas. Anyway, when dada tried to rollerblade in my skates, he couldn't balance and all and was hopping and jumping around like some kuku bird =.=" So hilarious the way he nearly fell down ; with those legs-widely-opened stunts and all. Hahahha!!
I've a few pictures to show, but not today. Will do it soon most probably. (:

And yeah! I've take up a tuition assignment for p6 Maths. It will be starting next tues. :DD
I hope everything will be alrights larhhs ((:
TATA people!!!!


p/s I LOVE LEEWENNHANLEEWENNHAN
LEEWENNHAN LEEWENNHAN, FREAKY!!!!!!! :DDDDDD
But dada's leaving for Malaysia soon ; in ten days' time )):
People, Please be prepared that i will whine and grumble and rant and bewail anytime soon! ):

Pictures (Esplande)

This was a long out-dated entry. Hahahas. Didn't really have the time and effort to publish this thus i'm finishing it only today *dated 23thMay. (: These are the pictures from Sheila aiai's Camera taken on the esplanade trip.

Dionis aiai, Prettay her! :D
Us us

muacks muacks muacks my dear baby lover. :D

Lalalla

Dionis aiai and i were looking at my lappie's screen luh.

Fides aiai and me me me! LOVES

Yours truly in fides's favourite cap Hahahah!

my LOVES :D Sweet girlfriendss ((:

Fides aiai, sheilA aiai and mee!! ( LOVES THEM ~!)

Going down the escalator

EEEEEEEEEEEE.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe. I was doing PACC ; and looking at my pathetic lappie. It's super pathetic larhhs, if you see the condition it's in now - you'll really cry larhhs. Wth.
PACC is fun, but it's stressing me up =X
And BENjamin bah jingcong!!!
I didn't know you are so proud to be mentioned in my blog :P
Why?? Do you need me to advertise you too? To attract girls to you??
DUHDUHDUDHUDUH!
I'm exhausted !
Not going to finish my homework today ; heck care. HMPFSSSSSSS!

TATATATA!!!!!!!!








I MISS MY BABY BOY LEE WENNHAN my bfbfbbfbfbbfbfbfbfbfbfbfbbfbf!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Relieved.

I'm so relieved! Finally, pth Presentation is over. :D I was so busy rushing everything for the project and now it's finally completed (: Well, i'm having a class later ( econs Lect) . Boringgggggggg. Dots. hehes.

Anyway, Dadada was sick anyway and i hurried over to toa payoh to buy medicine and some tonic drink for Dearie. Luckily, he's alright now. All credits to me because i've took great care of him ( even allowed him to sleep on my bed and pitiful me have to sleep on the couch ): Hehehs.

Statistics today was fun! My favourite EMaths topic : Probability :DDDDDDD Good ~
Some out-dated pictures :X

TATATATA!

miee, sheila, weeliang (: Bowling trip ages ago !!!

Zhihui lover! Hehehs . Haji lane trip :D love herr!!!

i suddenly miss my Pss friends and besties )):

By the way, Pictures taken on Monday 's Esplanade hangout will be uploaded soon! Once i get the pictures! ((::

Dada's so sweeetttttttt!!!!!!!!! He rebonded my hair for me on monday... THANKSS MY LOVE MUACKSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

p/s I miss my aiai lovers!!!! Jiahui , Joanne, Xueqi , Yvonne, Angel, Daphni!!!!!!!!!!!!! Meet up soon pleaseeeee!!!!!

I LOVE MY DADADADAAD MANY!!!!

the CHINA DISASTER .

I was reading the newspaper, and the first thing i saw :

Entire village buried in Chinese quake, entombing residents

Oh, what a tragedy. I mean like seriously, this tragic disaster left so many ( it's not just tens, it's 32,500) How hilarious does that seem to you? And mind you, to those who are laughing - i think you should reflect on yourself and give yourself a tight slap because at the other end of the world ; People are struggling to survive even when they are buried deeply in ruins. And to people who think that commiting sucide is the best way to end their troubles, then allow me to ask you :

Okays, so people are trying their best to survive even though it's super difficult to (when they are buried in destroyed buildings and half-damaged schools? ) ; and here you are bewailing over how depressing and saddening your life is and why you should end your life?

It's so ludicrous how reality are ; within a day - everything could end up in ruins. Imagine

* You're a survivor of this disaster and you were so relieved when aid arrives . Immediately, you look around the city which once looked so familar to you. Glancing around the surrounding , you hope to see some familar faces whom will say :" don't worry my dear, everything's alright . " But there is none of any familar faces you see, only ruins , ruins, and More RUINS. Ruins of your school, your home , Everything. You see millions of people in the rubble, but none of them look familar to you. Apparently, you were brought to a place to seek shelter ; but none of the refugees there are related to you. Right this moment, you understood. An earthquake occured while you were having your chinese lesson . This earthquake, extra-ordinary enough to take away everything you owned. Your dearest family, your friendly friends, your loving teachers and everything. You're in the city where you grew up in and yet, everything just seems so strange to you. You're so frightened you hope in your heart that sometime, someone would come and fetch you away - Away from this horrible nightmare. But with each passing day, the hope in you grew lesser. Eventually , you lost hope and just have to bear with this lonely, strange, terrible world.

How would you feel?

My heart goes out to the victims of this terrible natural disaster, as well as the survivors. It's so hard on them. It made me realise - the world's changing. It's time i learn to appreciate my surroundings. It's time i learn to be glad and thankful for everything that i have now. My family, My dearest babyboy, My lovely friends , my caring teachers ; and a lot more people . Even those who hate me, because if i'm in that situation that i doesn't even know where my family are , i think the people who hate me will never even have the energy and mood to hate me anymore. I should learn to forgive and forget, to accept my weakness and strengthen it. I shouldn't be so childish ; creating troubles implicating others as well. It made me realise that what i'm going through is not as difficult as what it seems if i look at it positively.

So, enough of all these terrifying real stories of people in China, it's time i wise up and appreciate everything i own. :D I should be grateful to others who've guided me along. I'm also thankful to people who've hoped and wished the best for me. They are the best people (other then my closest) in the world that i've ever met. To be able to accept the others; wish them all the best from your heart is not something easy to be achieved by many people (:

Yeah yeah, enough of this super wordy and draggy post, here's a picture of yours truly to people who've missed me! ((:

Tomorrow will be a nice day i suppose ; as i'm meeting sheila aiai and people tomorrow! :D

TATA!!!

I LOVE MY HUBBY!!!!!!!!!! WEESSSSS!!!!!!! CAN SLEEP WITH HIM TONIGHT!!!!!!! :DD

Class gathering! ((:

Yesterday was some sort of class gathering for DTRM03!! It was loads of fun & laughters ( A pity for those who didn't go ((: ) Hehes. Anyway, After schoooooool i followed the guys to find Mr * dunno-who* for enquires on the macau trip. And, Jianwei told me his secret! *winks* Hehehs. So after that we hanged around in school, waiting for time to past as i have an interview at 3.

When the clock strikes 3 , i went up for my interview which took quite some time ( Like 45 mins? And jianwei was complaining the whole while saying that i should feel guilty that i made them wait for an exact 45 mins. Hehehes. But at least they are GENTLEMAN enough to wait :D
Teehee. After my interview we took a bus down to cineleisure to meet the other girls who reached cine earlier and were so hungry already! ( I'm really sorry, my lovesss!!! )): In the bus, jianwei and i were chatting about bgr stuff and i was grumbling about the neh neh thing larhhs. ( lol, i learnt the neh neh thing from shauna haha! ) He was super shocked about that too and found it super interesting ( for some unknown reasons ) LOL.

When we arrived at suki sushi's door step , we discovered that we were left with one hour to eat only and ten minutes to order our food if we did went in for dinner. Thinking that it wasn't worth it, we went to pastamania. We had our dinner, and chatted our time away. It was such a hilarious session ( From how we tried to fold our fingers into some particular shapes ; to how
amazing and fansinating kelly's mouth is when she winked the right side up ! )

LOL. After that we played some childish games ( how many meh meh, how many leaves have fallen to the round, Banna and yellow, All around the world for 80 days ; and the scrissors paper stone game) hahaha! So much laughter and enjoyment i believe i'm falling in love with DTRM03! Yay!

anthony ( kelly was repeating that his face looked so stress( ; jianwei -he claims he is camera shy !

Velvel, jasmine, jingqi having fun!

jingqi lover looks so exhilarated!! :D

i was too full to finish my garlic bread and when jianwei mentioned i was wasting food, i fed velvel's soup to my bread! lol

Mr Anthony the stressed , and Mr Darryll the smart! ( he managed to figure out the solutions to our game!)

My beaten hand - by jianwei and jingqi lover Is it very bad??

If mine's bad, theirs are worse ( That's why jingqi Lover said that they dote on me too much thus they hit me lightly. LOL

this is my shauna banana lover!!! ((: She's kinda ill now, Must take care kkays baby!

jingqi lover and i!!! (:

this was taken during my pth lecture ( i was so bored.)

My Shauna banana lover! hehes ((:

i was complaining to yuting that i want to eat lollipop but was afraid that lecturer will scold, but in the end i was defeated by my lollipop craving!

this is yuting, she wanted lollipop too!! :)

My LOVERS, shauna suana & jingqi gigi!

this is siew yuan and me a few days ago *before econs lecture*

this was taken on thurs, Gigi's big day!!!! the cam-shy peepos

the cake we bought gigi lover, DTRM03 LOVES GIGI!

She was so embarrased as all the other people in Fc 5 were looking at us as we sang the song !!

This was taken by jingqi lover!! I was daydreaming larrhs. So candid. LOL

Boring me took a boring picture before the boring lecture.

YaY! We are the BUBUBOY LOVERS! ( Not exactly for me )

This is yours truly :D One of the hands belongs to Shauna lover!


Wees. That's basically all for today. (((: Please continue to visit my blog for more interesting readS!!! :DD Oh ya anyway, i feel that i'm getting popular ( So many * i-dun-know-who* People are tagging me now! Giving me so much attention! Woots! I'm enjoying such attention yeah baby! Hahas ((:

Before i leave, please allow me to WISH MY JOANNE LAOPO

A VERY HAPPY AND SWEET SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY!!!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!! :D ENJOY YOUR DAY ,YOU BETTER!!!!!!! heees.

22 more days to SEA CRUISE WITH SBDTRM!!!

lalalala.

I LOVE MY BABY BOY DAR DAR DAR HUBBY MANY MANY MANY!!!!!!

MISS HIM LA!!! )):