Ups and Downs

 I remember when i was 15 i wanted badly to turn 16 so i would be eligible for NC16 movies. Then, i turned 16 but i wished i was 18 to be able to step into a club; take alcoholic drinks. Now that i'm19, i wish i needn't had to grow up. I realise that time flies and i do not want to reach 21 so soon yet. I reckon we all face the same problem - nothing is ever enough.....

 Just like how skinny people will always say that they're fat 

 Just like how we wish lessons would start at 2pm now that we have 1pm classes

 Just like how singles wish they could be attached 

 Just like how people always complain that they can never get enough money ... 

 like how you wished you've had a good day instead of a bad one ....

 And how i wish i had more clothes now that my closet's already full ' .....

And it's all because of GREED. Everyone's born greedy. We can/will never have enough and we are always complaining/grumbling on things we have already done/could have done. Have you ever had times whereby you just wished you had done something instead of something to achieve a better grade/result? It's all because of our greedy nature, we want things to be on our side and nobody likes failure. That's why we tend to ask for a lot of things when in fact we already own many things. It's quite funny how human minds program i think i should have gone for psychology instead of ISP for my elective module.

 A typical day in school was spent within 2 hours of lectures which bored me to a certain degree then Jill and I went to Bugis for our lunch. It was a great time spent with her and we chatted on a lot of topics and i met a lot of people. One of whom is Luci, Jill best friends' friend and whom is my friend too. It's actually pretty scary to think that a moment before i was just telling Jill about this friend and then a few hours later, we saw her! Well, maybe she knew that i missed her so she appeared in front of me... (Haha) Okay, i'll stop being chessy... But eventually Jill got Lily her clothing and her long-awaited corset and she left for dance as a very happy girl. I didn't get any corset although i was really tempted because I've already promised Wennhan darling that i wouldn't spend impulsively anymore. That's a good start for me :) This is the corset i really like and it looks good when i wore it as well. But... it's too pricey ...

Last night after my training darling cheated me and brought me to his home hoping that i would spend the night with him but sadly, i insisted on going home and he was an extremely cool sweetie he sent me home from Lavender back to my home at Choa chu kang at a time like 10.30pm? Well, any normal person would know that it takes around 2 hours to and fro the two ends and i was extremely touched that he insisted on sending me back even though it was already so late. A sweetheart like him will always be treasured deeply in my heart  because he's such a nice chap and he's so lovely, how could i resist not loving him? Afterall, we've been together for almost 3 years now and we're still so happy with each other we both think that it will be hell if we're gonna leave each other. Aww. Anyway, a very random thought struck me i need to get new mascara soon but i'm still unsure of which brand to get. Etude house, MJ, Dior, YSL, Mac or Lancome? Since Ena didn't get it for me because it was more pricey in Msia i have to get one in Singapore.. I'm thankful that she helped to check out the price for me though she's such a sweet young lady. So.. any suggestions of good mascara brands? Please kindly leave a comment so i know that' i'm not practically blogging to the wall although i know that 99% nobody visits my blog. :D

Anyway, tuesday our group presented a 2 hour professional image workshop to our class and it was really cool that all of our classmates attended the lesson. All peeps were nice and participated in our games which was pretty lame to begin with (= Then something happened in the toilet which made me shocked yet i was quite glad it happened because it signifies that we're taking a step further into our stranded and awkward relationship.

School has already started for almost 2 weeks but i'm still not in the correct school nerdy mode yet, i've yet to get my TLE Textbook and my RM textbook so i am unable to do my TLE tutorial for tomorrow's class. In addition, my heart is calling out to me... It's telling me that i should skip school tomorrow but my brain's telling me to attend school since it's a full-day school with all important modules. Hence now i'm in a dilemma should i listen to my heart or my brain?

Raindrop

sometimes i wish
 i am as innocent as a raindrop.
if i am one,
i can just cry whenever i want,
Land on someone's shoulder.
It doesn't matter who or what,
as all i want is to be accepted and loved by them.
If i am one,
i can be hidden from this reality,
no more troubles.
If i am one,
i can be the girl's companion.
At least i'll allow them to be weak and cry all they want.
If i am one,
i would be happy,
because children will play with me.
If i am a raindrop
i'll be oh, so carefree.

But somehow or rather,
i wish to be a tear in your eyes.
I'll appear only when you are sad,
i'll be with you through your hard times,
Never ever leave you to be alone in misery.
i'm sorry that's all i can do,
I wish to turn your mundane day into a colourful day.
But afterall, i'm still a tear who appears only in times of misery.
So,if i am a tear, i'll not appear again when you're fine.
That's when i know you are happy, and what i pray for you to be.
That's when i know i would leave you without worries with a smile on my face.


- C.WL Sarah 2007 

In a love mood

I have an awesome boyfriend who came all the way down from bugis to vivo just to surprise me with my favorite all time crave carl's junior Chilli fries ! and my fabulous boyfriend stayed with me throughout my break because he knew that I was seemingly reluctant to spare him.

Although my handsome boyfriend is not rich he cant buy me stuff I would like to own,he tries his best to surprise me with little moments and things like this which makes feel extremely pampered. aww, what will I do if he ain't around anymore?  -i needn't think of this answer though since it isn't gonna happen (; I'm confident

bloody hell

I hate fucking bangalahs who stare at you as if they've never see a girl. wth damns pissed now.
and I hate inconsiderate customers whom hog on to your handset for hours and transform the full battery into 20% remaining battery but does not buy anything!

Layout & Commenting System all done ;]

Ellos folks, how are you doing? Still surviving in school? I hope so =] Anyway, my blog is finally up with a proper commenting system and pretty layout at last. Any idea how long i took to encode the html ? i took a whopping 3 hours to do this, please tell me it's lovely ): *crossed doe-eyes*

It's finally the weekends! This week past by really slowly because of all the boring modules i'm taking this last semester. I truly hope i can manage to survive this year. Any plans for this weekends? For me, it's gonna be the same old routine yet again - working at vivocity. Motorola's launching another handset soon in May and i'm really excited about it i simply can't wait to see if it's better than the already smart Milestone i'm currently using. There are so many choices for you people who've yet to get a handset or is changing one soon i'm certain you are going to be spoilt for choices! There's Sony Ericsson's newly launched X10; HTC's newly lauched 'Legend; T-mobile G1 google phone ; Motorola's Milestone; IPhone 4G will also be in the market real soon.. So, have you decided which one you are getting? I'm happy with milestone because it's affordable and it's worth every penny considering that it has almost everything. Be smart, do some homework and check out the specifications of each model before getting your ideal handset.

By the way, did i mention that i have already decided my topic for ISP? I'm so excited about doing the research and all it just sounds so fun i can't wait to start. That aside, school is pretty much boring as you can guess and there are so many textbooks to buy this semester i would have to spend/already spend/in the midst of spending at least a $100 for textbooks to be used  for half a year. Sigh, i wish i could get access to infinite cash flow or something. It's almost 2 am already and boyfriend's still outside with his crazy friends doing breakdancing stunts and singing in the ktv. On normal circumstance, i would already be very pissed off at this moment but since it's his friend's birthday i'll make an exception [=

My eyelids are sinking so i'm going to pens off here.

Sayonara and enjoy your weekends!

Desire

I'm very much loving my timetable for the last semester in school. Things have been pretty light in school considering that its the first week and somehow I feel a little upset that im going to watch this semester pass by like a lighting bolt and it's gonna be the last time we grouppies work together.

Jill as usual, is very nice and sweet today we went shopping together. I was looking for shorts as the only pathetic one I had is nowhere to be seen and I feel so disgruntled because that was my favorite pair ):

But anyway I got one pair at $15 but Jill didn't get anything at all. There's this shop in bugis street which retails corsets. loads of them. We both were extremely excited and we got our eyes on the same design in different colours it's really beautiful with laces and floral pattern with a tied back ribbon. eventually we didn't get any of those since it was quite Pricey. Hmm. I'm so going to search for it online..

alright I'm on my way to gbe tutorial now I've just reached jurong east station. Byes everyone and good luck!

State of Confusion

What had happened to me?  What's wrong with myself? - Please solve this emotional turmoil asap , Sarah.

MAYday

Check out what daphni girlfriend made me for christmas 2009 !! so sweet isn't she ? I love it and since its all so polka dottie there's no reason not to love it ; )  we caught up a little on each other's lives from what seem like centuries ago and yep, things felt a little strange initially but the aftermath was great. My guess is that people whom barely meet for 3months will certainly feel awkward seeing each other at the first hour but afterwards, the close bond will relate back and it'll feel normal again.. don't you agree?  That's why its always good to talk to each other on the phone once every two weeks at the minimum.

I vividly remember how she used to disturb me during assembly every morning.  We laughed at every single thing and freaked out at every sight of weird creatures flying in the air. And I'm firmly rooted to the belief that she plays a big role in my life since she had always been the one I turn to when I encountered tricky mathematics questions which I couldnt solve. I'm very thankful that our surname initials are just a level different and because of that we had the chance to sit together in assemblys and then we became best friends ;) I hope we'll always be best friends, the friend that I feel comfortable with being myself and the one who would listen to whatever I have to say..

Past two days I met a lot of people in the fair and the chat with them made me feel like I've really grown up (; hopefully its a good thing *laughs *

okay, that's all for now I'm heading for work soon. byes.

1,2,3 step up

I love my long hair, finally :D
3 cheers for today!
1st; i'm meeting hazel to collect my 6 sprees' items later !
2nd; i will be staying over at baby's place tonight after one week at last
3rd, i'm off to meeting daphni soon!!

updated via email (;

gosh. I'm really bored now and apparently i've already checked out all entertaining websites i can find online.. thus now I cannot find anything else to do except blogging ); poor thing ain't I? 
I'm basically just idling around at jp watching my seagate booth and it's kinda terrible standing on covered flats ); I think I'm too used to wearing high heels so I feel extremely uncomfortable in my flats now );
anyway, last night I only had 2 hours of sleep due to my irritated sore throat and my flu.. At this moment I'm still feeling rather terrible but luckily today's location is just one short bus ride away from home ;) working alone is like the loneliest event that could happen to a person. And when I say alone, it means taking several jobs alone; watching your booth alone and eating alone. boo. luckily I have my milestone so I can manage surfing net occasionally. ;)
I'm going back to play my traffic jam game already 2 peekapoos for you: )
ps. I am a fat girl.

Deprived

Aww i'm deprived............from rest. There's only 2 words i can say now which is sadly, 'dead beat' - i'm feeling so exhausted from the consecutive days of working at various locations....

 And i know this coming week will be worse because ....

- Monday, tues and fri will be situated at jp for challenger show
- Thurs will pop over to suntec and open the shop
- Wed will be collecting my stuff
- weekends will be located at vivo as usual til

 All of which starts from around 10/11 - 9/10 pm no wonder i'm feeling so bushed now. I just finished my movie and the time is already 2.25AM now. Ohmy, i only have 6 hours of sleep to recharge myself for tonight. So i'll make this entry a quick one.

 Basically i checked my horoscope today and the advice it gave was sort of accurate in the sense that (it mentioned that i'll be meeting an important person whom may be an important contact and yes i did!) Yay~ Another addition to my list of contacts for my internship :) And just now while i was checking my horoscope tells 'Acer' came over and we found something in common ..... and that's our birthday ! >< It's such a coincidental matter and i even thought he joked about it. But yep, it's true and we share the same birthday man! He's the first friend of mine to share same birth date as me ! 15/12/1991 we rocks -- :D

 And usual, it was boring having to stand the whole day and occasionally the crowd were so small that i just felt like dying (bored to death) luckily i have my milestone and the other promotors to entertain me for the whole 10 hours. Speaking of which, i'm so proud to say that i sold many sets of milestone today !!!!! My incharge even replied "wow, that's a lot..." so yea i hope our salary for this weekends will be adjusted to maximum because $ = Shopping ! I saw a high neckline dress from 'kitchen' which i adore aplenty and i'm going to get it soooon, i hope ):

Right now i have two more goals - to kick two of my bad habits which caused my imperfection :)
Plus, i just realised that Vanness got back together with Arissa Cheo which is pretty good since they're quite compatible :) And the mention of Vanness make me lovesick man ): I will not be seeing dear boy this week since i'm gonna be real busy and next week school starts "Aiya, sian. I need more time a day, 24hrs is not enough!"


Ok great, 5 hours and 15 mins to go before i MUST wake up ):

all geared with newbies..

I love wennhan hubby loads (; This fruitful holiday was spend 9 out of 10 times with him at his cosy home.. he's such a sweetheart he bought me a pair of new spectacles when he saw my eyes hoping for that pair of brown specs even though I lost his $700Sgd due to my careless behavior he still got it for me..

Sometimes I feel mad at myself for being pissed off when he wants to meet up with his friends, I shouldn't be overly possessive but I really cannot bear sharing him with other people.. That's me (: Imma "what's mine remains mine" person.

Anyway I have a terribly horrifying experience to share.. and I bet it will spook you guys but I'll blog some other time with my lappie because I'm using my small driod qwerky keyboard to type now and trust me, it's not easy!!

Oh and yep Fides is coming back soon!! Yipee!

Blink of an eye : One week is gone !

Say "Hello" to my lovely cutie pie maltese!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He's been crying too much that explains the tear stains around his eye corners... 

I'm finally home after one week of refuge in boyfriend's home. (well, not really seek refuge but more of for convenience ) This week's newest arrivals are all pretty , trendy and super tempting! My top favorite would be this satin toga dress with gold plaits : 

It looks really simple and it's a very versatile piece... Pair it with a blazer for a formal look, a gold heels and gold chain necklace for that 'stunning' look and a pink heels and cardigan for that girly look!!! I'm simply in love with this piece amongst the 10 new pieces :) I almost bought it if not for my pathetic situation now. (Sigh, Most salary will only be in next month so i have to bear with my tight situation for one more month before it loosens up in order to have enough for school ) I'm quite dreadful of school by the way, but since it's the last semester i'm going to force myself to buck up now .. 

Last weekends at Starhub a new HTC girl came and we clicked on very well. She's in university now but i still insist that she looks young, even younger than i do! Urgh, must be all the cosmetics that make me look damn 'chao lao' 

She's quite a fine lady and pretty nice but it's a pity that last Sunday was her last day so tomorrow i'll be seeing a new HTC girl again. Hopefully i can improve my sales figure this weekend to hit my maximum pay rate/ hour. Anyway last weekends work was pure slack and i went out shopping for a few hours because heading back. I saw a few eye-catching pieces at "kitchen" especially this black tube long jumper which made my legs look sleek and long ! I took it with my driod, will upload the pictures some other time. :) 

Next week will be spent working for MS, CR and with my boyfriend (hopefully). *grumbles* i don't even have time to collect my spree loots which arrived before the school vacation lor. > <

I'm quite a practical person, i think $ is the most important thing in my life which always run out fast; following because kinship that's why i frequently work. Who's gonna give me if i run out of it one day? My boyfriend does but i don't wanna rely on him as i do not want to be his extra burden alongside with his house rental, phone bills and many other expenses etc. In addition, i think it's time for me to learn to save for a rainy weather in case when intern starts i'm unable to survive...

and stop PROCRASTINATING !


I did an extremely foolish thing this week and instead of sharing my boyfriend's burden, i just added another heavy load into it. ): I hate myself for being so mindless all the time.

I guess i do hate myself; for being such an unfilial daughter; taking all things for granted..

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