Food for thoughts

I can envisage a perfectly planned future with wennhan, the one who never fails to express his feelings for me. And he does it in a unique way. He does it by saying "I love you" every single start and end of a day. And he says it in a passionate manner, that kind of tone you would use to someone dear to you, like a mum telling her daughter how much she loves her. It always perks me up no matter how bad my day had been or how petrifying my nightmares were.  I have spent 124 weeks 2 days of my life thinking of you, missing you like crazy.

I certainly enjoyed this growing up process with you, it had been a long train ride, sharing our thoughts, pouring our feelings out, telling each other stories. I love how you looked like whenever I tell you a story - a new story I just read. Those eager eyes, stern face and a very curious expression  i could draw from your face. Plus the undivided attention you gave. It felt like a competition I had been drawn into, except the only difference is that there were only one contestant, and I had already won the best storyteller award even without competing.

There were something in you which I could not see in others. And you stand out amongst the others. It wasn't your build that matters, it was your charisma, the smell of your perfumed skin, you still smell as good even after a long day. I love to see you smile, it was so innocent i felt like nothing was impossible with your smile.

The way you hold me in your arms,  so tightly that sometimes I couldn't breathe right, but I didn't had to, your cuddle was the only thing I wished for everyday. Your warmth, your pleasant smell, the sweet smell of your hair, the intimacy between us which surpresses all our upset moments, your hug is the only drug Im addicted to.

I remembered the very first time you came my house, we went to a playground nearby where there wasn't anyone around and we kissed. It was a slow, passionate kiss which made my heart thump triple its normal rate. We held our hands together, like little kids and we chattered our time away. It was abln unforgettable moment of my life, the first kiss you made to me. I saw your feelings in it, the sparks that lighted up beneath it, I would tell your heart beat went crazy just like mine did.
I want to tell you I love everything that makes you, you're a perfect boyfriend - always giving the best you could. That's you? Its perhaps the reason we started, your familiar accent, your comforting voice, those mesmerizing brown eyes, and a very unique dress sense.

I love you babe, I really do.

I cant envisage a life without you being part of it. I wish we would continue as long as we are able to...