What does Sarah implies to you?

 Very much living in a confused state every day trying hard to discover who i really am.
 It feels like I don't even know who i am.

What are my virtues? What are my flaws? What is my personality like? Why am i me? Why would i be in dispensible?

These are the questions circling my small little brain every single morning on my journey to work & every night before i fall deep in sleep.

What's my purpose in life? What's my goal in life?

All these questions I've yet to derive at an answer. They bugging me way too much. I feel inferior. I'm losing every single bit of confidence i once had. Why is it so? Could it be the people i meet? Could it be their strong aura that makes me feel inferior? Or does the problem lies with myself?

I'm puzzled. If only someone can offer me an answer i'll be grateful.

On the same note, i dislike myself greatly. I really abhor losing things anyhow and anywhere without a valid reason. I dislike being unable to remember all the slightest tiniest details of the events in my life. It's to an extend that I can easily and effortlessly forget where I've been to yesterday and what I've done throughout my day.

For instance, i was supposed to meet Sheila, Dionis & clique last night at her place but i didn't go eventually. I was searching frantically for my passport. I practically rummaged my whole room - my bags, my study table, my cabinet and anywhere my passport could possibly be hidden in. But still, to no avail. And as i was too engrossed in searching, i absent-mindedly let time pass and forgot that i was supposed to go out at 10. When i came to realise, it was already like 12am. Boollloocckks.

At this point, i'm still in search of a reason of my life to be proud about. I'm officially depressed.

Bye Guys, See you when i see you then.

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, How i wonder where you are?

The thing i Love Love Love about my Pentax X90 (Besides the ZOOM, that is)  is that It's so awesome to camwhore with - with the face detection & Smile capture mode! It's so fun I'd just leave it on the table and snap my whole day away!

 Okay i think i have just scared the hell out of you people with my vain pictures. HAHA! I'm just so used to stepping out of my house with entirely NO make up on these days, i'm plain lazy to wake up early and make up!

Anyway, I'll only be facing desktops every single day writing proposals and all so even if i doll myself up really gorgeous-ly, that's no one i can electrify in the office. What's the pleasure of looking so pretty in front of a desktop that doesn't even talk it can't even appreciate your make up ?! Such a depressing matter. Humph.

Another thing, the haze is so bad these days. I can't even see the stars anymore and it's kinda sad you know. Dear Indo, please stop burning down the forests, we need to live peacefully with a good environment and not with a sky so hazy that i can't even see the stars ):

PS. I miss my girls Ena, Sheila, Dionis, Xueqi and Fides! ):

2nd October 2010 Wedding

Our Mixer and Console in the Chruch.

The Chruch was extremely warm and stuffy because there weren't many fans around. So Mr. G and his team were thoughtful and clever enough to provide fans as souvenirs!

Adorable Cutie Flower girl For Elin & Sherwin..

Exchanging Rings, taking the vow..

Fortunate 8888  bride's car!

Monuments found in the Garden.. I reckon they are historical monuments..



After the chruch session, there was a buffet prepared for the guests. And teh! Remember i mentioned there's this boy who wanted to marry me? Haha! That's him!



Lonely Pet dog abandoned outside the chruch while the rest of us were inside.

Me love Roses! Red Roses!

Banquet Dinner @ National Musuem, Island Table Style & Western Set Dinner Menu

The table layout. & Pretty Chocolate bar!!

VIP Seats!

The wedding Cake. Simple and pretty with those aww so sweet roses!



I've no idea what this is. But took it since it's quite pretty. Maybe some biscuits from US?



Bring me a pocketful of roses

 I'm sure fellow school mates who ventured into the MICE industry like me are shouldering huge sacks of responsibilities at this moment.
 There're just so many things to do - Proposals, Contestants; applications, Meeting clients, Site Recees .. and i'm  enjoying every single moment of work i'm tasked to do. I honestly love the feeling of satisfaction behind every successful event. ^^ Camile's gone and Michelle will only come in on Nov 1 so there's quite a handful of tasks on my plate to clear. I'm lucky to have chosen this company/ industry instead of any other roles like travel agents, hotel staff etc.. because i feel really happy to be able to wake up each day with a different enquiry and a different kind of project to work on.
 I guess i'll probably be on a hiatus till mid of November at least - when things start to slow down on my track. End of Oct & Nov will be extremely busy i envisage and i'm a little upset and worried that i wouldn't be able to meet up with dearest Fides while she's back in town. Unless I'm courageous enough to um, take leave/ squeeze some time out my busy schedule. Whichever the case may be, i'm going to take the risk just to see her (:

爱。李汶翰

亲爱的汶翰，我知道最近我们的关系好像越来越差了。

都是因为我们做工的时间相冲，每当我到你家我就真的很累了。

对不起，不能陪你度过你的offday。

你知道我对你特别的敏感，

有时你开玩笑我也会很在意，会自责。

然后就会耍脾气要你疼我。

可是每次都会失败，反而让你更讨厌我生气我。

我也不是故意一直到耍脾气拉，人家要你注意我嘛！

可是每次都失败咯。）：

我真的不喜欢和你吵架，我不喜欢你不理会我，不睬我。

每当你不管我我的心就会很痛-仿佛被奏一样

痛的我喘不过气。

我做事很冲动-就像买东西一样。

不开心时就会很想和朋友说

生气时就会不分青红皂白的对你发脾气

无缘无故我也会因为妒忌而一直哭。

我的幼稚，我的冲动，我的无知，

谢谢你接受我的一切

不嫌弃我的缺点，想尽办法让我的缺点变成优点

谢谢你一直相信我，信任我。

你对我的关心我都看到了

我相信我们一定能一起为我们的将来打拼！

为我们的丫丫，为我们自己的家加油

我有信心，有一天我们能穿着礼服，

手牵手的接受全世界的祝福！

我爱你。

每一秒都想和你在一起，

我不在乎以后的路是不是会很艰欧

不在乎任何人方对我们在一起

我只要跟你在一起。

只要有你陪伴，

就算是最轻淡的白粥吃起来也会变得像是鲍鱼粥。

I LOVE YOU

Whole-heartedly.

For my entire life

I want to be with you in my next life cycle

For eternity.

<3

Margaret's 13th Birthday (:

Overdued entry, Margaret's birthday celebration was on 30th September. A day akin to a roller coaster ride - extreme emotions throughout the whole day. Nevertheless, it was a day to remember.

Utilized 3/4 of the vouchers i won from the contest and brought these goodies back:

So i told Wennhan that i'm Camera-shy and he chose not to believe. Hence i had to grab his boxer and use it as my shield. Lol!

Birthday girl had her share of the goodies too! Got her a pink backpack which is good for school.

'Ahm qio' in this picture. ^^

My favorite, she look really adorable here--v

My dearest mum (hair a little messy but nevermind she's not the lead lol)

Epic fail. I acted like a pro photographer and tried to take a modelling picture of her but looks like its not leading us anywhere. haha!

Then Wennhan came in and said "I can do better. See! ... Margaret you must stand like that....*shows her how to do it* Then ...okay,1,2,3...Snap!"

Pretty good for an infant photographer yea?

Sidetrack: When will it be my turn??

Milestones to my promising future

 So, one week has flew past and i'm already on my second week of internship.

Let's take a ride on what happened since my first day:

- Wedding Celebration of Sherwin & Elin
Sherwin is so romantic! He hired a private jet to hang a banner with "Elin <3 you tons. Marry me?" which circled the sky above the swimming pool where they were at. It was quite an experience for me for the fact that i was the coordinator but i was practically in a confused state of mind because I didn't consult Colin beforehand. Then came this little Caucasian boy who's so adorable he told Robert Fernando that he want to marry me. It's like throughout the whole day he came to our console for at least 10 times and stood there looking at us. At the end the technicians were really funny people too. Lol. I had a good laugh working with them.

- Malay Dance for Home Team Academy
Many pictures were taken,  coordinated with HTA to ensure that the dance crew perform up to standards.

- Meetings & Presentations with clients
Presentations were done in a casual approach - nothing like what we did in school, really interesting and it's meetings / presentations like such which reminds me that i'm doing real client-based projects, not just a mock D&D for 500 pax!

- Quotations, emails, proposals ( I love doing proposal! )

In addition, the main thing i love about being in this company is that customers/clients find their way to our company, we do not have to make cold calls; no bugging people to engage our services but still we're busy every other day. The work environment is seemingly friendly and I'm starting to love teasing my colleagues.

The only flipside is the long hours which is a burden for me considering that i'm a person who needs at least 15hours sleep to stay wide awake with huge dolly eyes the next day. (That's why you guys usually see me in eyes that are shrinking every other day. Haha!)

So the other day Baby came to fetch me from work and we travelled to Chinatown for Swensens'. My childhood favorite family restaurant, i used to be fondly in love with their ice cream! But now nobody really craves for their ice cream anymore );

Aww crap. Fuckin' blogger is hindering me from uploading pictures because of their 'awesome' adobe flash 10 pictures uploader which is slow like ....*i don't know how to describe*