late late at night feel like slping larhhs!!

tired tired!!! hahas but dun wanna slp lehhs cus muz blog first. hahas. haisx. bored life. utterly meaningless somehow. hais. i feel like im losing my determination to do things in my life already. But why? haiz. i truly didnt want that lorr. How do i go about changing that? it seems so hard to. Today had a maths test. The first few qns were still medium standard larhs. but e last qns asking bout e bearing thingie v -_-'' lorhs. i dun even noe what the qns is talking about let alone asking.. LOL.
Feeling damn sick today. used quite a few packets of tissues today ald..Vv tired and sloppy. I came home had my lunch, watch tv until ard 5plus i went to slp. But then 6plus mummy came home and call me to wake up. Said that my sis's waiting for me at lot one to collect the specs ald. Then immediately i wake up den prepare then straight away pia go lot one wanting to mit her. But to my surprise she said she wasnt at lot one when i called her. Instead, she said she's still waiting for her bus 188 to arrive. What the.. so i bobian go lot one walk a bit, in a super sick state, then go library cus i shopped ard the shopping centre so many tyms le lorh meaningless to shop again seeing the same things. I found a suitable place to sit dwn and rest and at that point of time, i felt so bad and i cried lorhs. Super unwell. The surrounding was so cold it froze my hands and my body temperature seem to be rising as each minute passes.. So, i was feeling super terrible. cried there and i guess some ppl saw it larhs. hais. embarrassment. hais. den after i waited for so long, jiejie finally sms me to say that she's arriving soon. But she wanted to use the washroom first before meeting me at e food court there. I slot the books that i took out back into the shelves again and went dwn to the basement. I headed straight to the toilet cus i needed it too. While i walked i, jiejie came out. She waited for me a while bfore we went to collect out specs..... After the collection, we waited for eric korkor to fetch us and we headed home. Finally hone sweet home. hais. i dun wanna attend school tml.. i am sick. i hate to wake up early in the morning.. hais. but what can i do? The adam khoo workshop i dun even noe whether am i gg to attend or not. It's expensive larhs. 190dollars. hais. somemore nwadays mummy's always having financial; probs... Then like i feel v bad if i hve to ask her to fork out so much for the 3full days talk lor. hais.


the 2 poohs-my nite darlings.[have to say nite to them den ill slp hehe]]
[[our neoneos, the necklace he gave, i gave him, e heart he gave, e two pairs of earrings
he WALKED away and left w/ the pair of shoes
neoneos!!
i drew derrhs. wanted to gif him de but in the end never..

i took out the things he gave me just nw, suddenly felt so happy looking at those stuffs. hahas. it's like seeing him real close to me lorhs. hais. why am i so lovesick? for this guy who cares the heck of me and dun even care about my existence? WHY? why aint i not stronger? hais. to still wait for someone whom to me i think that he's forgotten about me and perhaps, having a new girl nw?