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Annyunghaseyo?!!
Just as i thought i can blog lerrhs, e connection went crazy again. LOL. lame cans! hais, so long nv online niao, kinda miss chatting with my lovely fwens.. plus these few days very very busy, everyday is a tired and buzii day for miie.
These few days sho many things happened. hais, i promised myself not to get intu relationship this year derrhs but hais, i just realised that my feelings are just so hard to control. HAIS. bad hair day, stupid styling creme spoil my hairdo. hate it, wanna be fifthy rich, den i'll be able to visit the salon as often as i like. Haiz or just let me meet some really awesome and wealthy guy who loves me a lot and is willing to spend money on me derrhs. DUH, i'm not being materialistic here okay, it's just a dream obb mine yeah? Dun ever rip me off my right of dreaming . =X
Hais, ytd i drank beer again larhs but it's at home. Den suay suay, broke my favie cup!!!! hais. damn sad cans!! why am i always breaking glasses whenever i drink? i'm not drunk, 100% sure on that, den, why? LOL. i told lm about it den he was somehow unhappy that i drink larrhs. Hais, and he wanna gimme a winnie de cup .
hais, do i really like him? But, i made e promise. should i break it? can i trust him? Is he really true? i really wanna dig out the answers of these questions.... i really cant seem to anticipate what's going on around, why i am thinking obb him for like, the whole day? Why am i so eager to meet him and acting like some cretin who's lovesick? hais. any am i peeping at my fone every single moment just in case my phone rings.. hais. He;s waiting for my answer, and i'm waiting for my own answer too...? hais. These things are just so so complicated. From complete strangers to sister/bro and now what? hais. He said he did not treat me as his sis for v long lerrhss... but i'm unsure of everything that happened.. All this while his msges of 'ilu' , 'imu' yada yada.... i thought those were normal lorhs. cus as my bro i oso love him marhs. Yet, now things have gone out of hand, i'm begining to find myself loving him for another reason, not as a brother. he really does means a lot to me. From the times i was so crestfallen and in such agony that i thought i would be better off dead to end al my sufferings. He was there for me, indeed he is. He scolded him for me, told my sis he didnt noe how to cherish a good girl like me, so it's his fault for being stupid. To the times i naively thought that as long as i remain single, i'll be happy. He shared my joy, shared my sorrows HAis i wonder if anyone noes what i'm writing now here.. But it's alrite, what matters is that i understands. =) My sis said he will treat me better, it's obvious . And that we are compatible. Mami(jiekie) said he is better than yeebin. so why am i stil in doubt? hais. He said he always write my name all over his class desk, whiteboard,window. But he just returned to single not long ago. And that time he stil msged me and said he miss her loads. These seems to be lies to me.. anyone can explain? Or isit him being the one who owe me an explaination? Hais
Today's the first day of lny, didnt really started off well... cus, bad hair day! hais. took some photos though, i'll try to upload them.... tata.

p/s: didnt get to talk with him at nite.. hais. miss him not?