june 1 07.

June 1 07. Remember this day. I swear i'm gonna put my 100% in everything after this day till o lvl is over. 4 more pathetic months. Aww, i should not slack any further. Procrastinate should not appear in my dictionary =)) I should have more confidence in myself , higher self-esteem =)) hehes. Make o lvl afraid of me, not vice versa. hah. After june 1, i guess i must restrict myself in being online- once a week at most.
hais. motivation! i need some motivation! 5 more mths and i'll be freed! oww. how nice can it be. Tourism =) wo lai le!! Forget about the nygs, rgs ... people who wanna take up this course. You guys are smart eh? so? i will be more hardworking. fight till the end! endure..
Sheila, evon, almost all my friends started with their revision already. i should catch up with them!!

Targets:
chinese-A1
e.maths-A1
english-B3
sub sci-A2
comb hum-B3
Biology-A2

L1R4: 9

hmm. it's hard. But i will not give up! i was born like this i couldnt choose, i can and will only make a change in my life.No grudges or complains or whatsoever. No regrets. =)

p/s: i told you a lie. But that's because i'm in a dilemma. sorry.

people.

It's not that i have a choice. Even if i do, it's as if i'm left with no choice. I hate my life. The moment i was born and came into this world , my life is meant to be ruin. No freedom or whatsoever. You guys dun understand me. You guys don't know what i'm thinking, really. Sometimes i feel so lonely inside, nobody cares. Sometimes i need someone to care for me, talk to me, walk with me. Yet, sometimes i hate the feeling of being controlled. I'm in a dilemma. My life can be summarised by a word. SUCKS. i hate this competive and materialistic world. No rights, no freedom, no anything. why am i evern here in this world? Nobody cares. I hate crying alone, walking alone, going gym alone. i hate to be alone. Friends forever? Perhaps not. Everyone's changing , i'm the only silly one left alone. Even my most trusted friend seems to drift further apart from me. what's happening to this world? i hate my life. i such a.loner

nice day!

Finally got over with o level chinese papers one and two. Ochs. The paper 2's last passage was like hell. Freaking difficult. I had to read umpteen times to understand the passage. arhs. After that was supposed to go gym. But then had a change in decision because i was feeling very low and scared because of the paper. Demoralised me larh. I swear it was the first time i was feeling like that, such a ridiculous yet undescribable feeling. Awns. On my way home in the bus, was feeling damn ridiculous so i guess i pulled a long face or something , and that seriously made my journey a long and bad one. Heh.

Forget about the bad things, let's talk about the good things. hahas. Went to meet with jiahui and joanne! hehes.IT's so FUN going out with them =) although my outfit was so lakok. hahas. Anyway, we took prints and shop shop. hehes. fun fun. I bought a lacey polka dot top <33s . hahas. okay ppl, i'll end here , with the photos.
us!! i love them ! =DD miie in the middle, joanne the laft, jiahui the rite. =))
hehes i was making a fool of myself.
pretty jiahuii =))
they are so very cute =) i love them


heh. pardon me for laughing like a madwoman.

=P
hehes. jealous? i'm hugging her!!

hehhehs. one wierd one. hahas.





p/s:feel so reluctant to go to the eng wrkshop.

rainny day~

Tmr's o lvl chinese paper one and two! WEeeeheeeeeeee. I hope nothing bad will happen tmr *prays* . people, i'm very scared lehs. Must turn in early today, i hope i can turn in early today. So i will not be late or whatever tmr. choy!
Went to pioneer mall today, met up with mdm cheng and liming and my weeliang honey . She's great =)). She clarified our doubts and made us more confident. hehes. We chatted from 2.30pm to around 6pm . lalala. Liming and her was advicing me not to give up on the idea of tourism and resort management just because many students from top schools are fighting for it. She said i should say this ''You all are smart, But i'm hardworking so i'll fight till the end!"Sounds motivating isnt it? hehes.
On the way home, i realise i haven't eaten anything the whole day and i didnt feel like going lot one to meet mum thus i went sunshine place and bought my dinner. =) To my horror, it was raining cats and dogs when i came out of the kopitiam. suay ar! hhahas. I got under the rain and was drenched like 'luo dang ji' LOL. I began running in the rain but my pants were dropping off! Thus, i have to stop and walk. I was so so pathetic. LOL.
I hate getting caught in the rain. owhs.

Tmr's bio lesson, should i go? Or should i go meet jiahui and joanne aiai? Arhs. hate and so reluctant to attend her bio lesson. sians.

Wee! gym tmr! =))

p/s: tourism and resort management , i'll try my best to squeeze in. =)) support me?

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help kays people? xiexie!

3 more days..

3 more days to Chinese O lvl paper 1 and 2! Feeling so tensed up and super duper frightened now. Arhs.. What to do?? peoplee.., please pray for me can???? i want to get at least an A2-my normal standard, pleaseseeeeeeeee. =XX. Very scared lehhhs.. Teach me some ways to relax leii.. hehs. Arhs. so nervous.. SARAH! take it easy larh!

i want to jian fei! lol. I'm so freaking obsessed with it man. MUST MUST STOP binge-eating le. lol. Eating like nothing else matters. hais. i hate giving up halfway but im still doing it. hais. cant freaking stand it lor. HAis..
Going gym with weeliang honey tmr. hahas. And i need to clarify something, that weeliang is only my acting 'honey' , more of the buddies kinda pals, not those bgr kinda honey! lol. We acted as if we were for entertainment purpose =P. O lvl's making us too stressed up, that's y. hahas.

And oh yah, i hereby announce Daphni as my girlfriend todaY!! hehes. LOVE so just too much. =)) *heyheyyouyou! i can be ur gf!*

Gg off le, ttata!

p/s: i don't need love, stop greeting me =P

picS!!

Dear blog, i mentioned yesterday i took a lot of pics wibb my honey after workout yeah?? nah. Here are those pics =P Credits to us both =)) hahas.


up: i'm fooling ard alrites! =)
up:i was taking myself. hahas.
up: Vague memories..
up: =P
up: he edited it , i further edited it.

up: hmms..
up: smile!
up: feigning depressed..
up: the sixties...

up: crazy fellows. hahas
up: that's called emo, isnt it?


up: random pic by him ..

up: his credits..

up: his credits..
up : Us..

Hmm peepos, ask me anything you guys wan kkies? hehes. i'll fill you in =)) wee! I'm feeling so ill, hais.. fever, running nose, headache!

p/s: i hate falling sick!

to my dear blog..

Dear blog,
today's a fun day for me! hahas. or shall i say yesterday was a good day? Hmm.. went gym with weeliang honey ... And we took a lot of pictures!!! =)) hahas. Oh yarhs. it was hilarious working out with him. LOL. And i saw a damn cutie there!!! His name is Nabil *i peeped on e register form hehes. His ic starts with 92... thus, i believe he's sec 3 this year! hahas. A malay guy who looks like chinese de.. hehes. I saw him and kept bugging honey to ask him for no, lol *(i was only kidding him larh blokes!) Ohh And he kept looking at me also. *blushes But he's so damn adorable and HOT! =P Oh no, Sarah's getting lovesick again. ahahas. Entertainment purposes, u know... hahas. okay gtg le. tata!

lazy me.

Dear blog,

arghs. i gonna be switchin off lappie pretty soon i suppose. aArhs. Been using it for the past one hour. Surfing net, doing some meaningless stuffs. Duh, i cant be wasting my time off like this yeah? HAis. I'm so tired. Insufficient sleep and lots of stuffs to be completed. O LEVEL ARHS! driving me nuts.
I'm saving up ! hehes.
To rebond my hair la!! i still prefer myself with long straight hair =) Hopefully , by sept, i'll have my hair done! =X i cant wait.

Have i changed>? Or wad? hais. i jsut cant get the facts right. But why is sheila like this? It's been days and i felt we hasnt really talk much? We didnt quarrel and everything was fine among us but why then i felt like she's a complete stranger? i HATE this feeling. She's My AIAI aka BESTFREN OK! Not any of those strangers i've met. Hais. Hope to resolve this issue really soon =(( pretty crestfallen now...

Hais, my mood does swing in a fast mode. Having no mood to carry on further thus ending it here.

p/s: HAPPY BIRTHDAY laopo JOE.ANN & XINHUA korkor =)

Social Studies exam!

*feedback on social studies examination
-level of diff: Average
-topics: Governance , ASEAN Sri Lanka ...

i chose Governance and crapped a lot. hah. I'll be elated if i pass all with L4 . hehs. Anyway, tmr's geog and it's gonna be real tough man. DUh. Gambeteh!!! Jiayou jiayou! =)
Anyway, i should complete my long dued eng assignment soon. hahas. Mr clover's such a nice teacher *grins . After school i took the usual route home. I was pretty unlucky, missed the 172 bus just as i was reaching the bus stop and could only watch the bus went off without me T.T . Hahas, left with no choice, i had to wait for another one which took so long to arrive! Arhs. so annoying. lol. While waiting, there was this one group of WW-ians who walked past and teased me. I was indulging in my storybook land and i heard one shouting ''who who?! who's good looking?! '' I didnt know they were teasing me at first so i didnt bother about them . But, they actually hid in the bush and peep at me la! Then they were like ''pioneer one leh! hey girl! my fren wan ur no! '' so loudly that the other ppl waiting for bus were looking at me lor. Felt so embarrassed i wished i had a hole to hide in. LOL. I ignored them anyway, and went off. *phew.
Then, i studied at lot one's mac and luqman came hours later. I'm so begining to feel he look so so alike to sufri korkor! hahas.
im one real demanding meanie. i pester mummy to buy me one straightener she promised me and my sis. hahas. the stuff's costly thus i'm a insensible daughter! spending her hard earned $$ like this =P

Okay, can anyone teach me how to find grad in geographical term? i need some help here =X

p/s: wee! gym tmr? intensive chinese continuously for next few weeks till o lvl. arhs. tiresome.

lazy

xiiaoliing's getting lazy!!! NONO! this cannot do! She knows she need to study hard for her exams but she's not putting in the effort!!! NONO!! help her! hais.
- Went study at cck mac wibb hansel just now. Darling janelle came and join us hours later. And i didnt really finish studying my SS sec 4 syllabus. i'm so lazY!!!! hais. WHY AM I LIKE THIS>? monday's the exam alr and i haven even familarise myself with the contents! hais... hate myself being like this.
oh shit. my sis' back . got to go off alr. she'll be ranting at me soon. arhs! i'm such a big fat baddie. =D

I need some encouragement. Damn myself. Hais, i wanna go gym larh! i need to burn those xtra calories! =) And people, please dun say im thin alr cus to myself i'm not! =DD

btw, did i mention i love darling janelle a lot? hahas. anyway, she's one real sweetie pie of mine. xiiaojiie dun be lazy larh! everyday slack at home not good =P

Today's my honey nim's birthday!!!
a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY NIM HONEY!!!! =D
i love you my dearest darling and pressie will come soon kay?!!! good luck for ya exams kk!!jiayou!!! =)

SOCIAL STUDIES EXAM- i wonder how i'll flare for it. hais.

p/s: i hate myself for being like this. really abhor this me.

hehes.

woot* examinations gonna start real soon . Monday - SS - very tough and complicated subject. hehes. I will try my best de! treat every exam as o lvl =)) hehes. We got back chinese paper 1 and paper 2 already... hehes. but that's not e exact prelim one result , there's still listening compre to be calculate into too. hehes. but not bad bahhs =)) at least get A2. hehes. but if listening good den A1 lo. hehes =)) But this's not o lvl so i will zai jie zai lii!!! =))!!! hahas. jiayou !! hehes.. Today had ss lesson till 5 . hehes. the others went off quite early at ard 1plus but i stayed till 5 with some others. hehes. i learnt a lot of things lehh!!! Mr chua is rules! hehes. alrite i have ss exam on monday yet i haven finish studying all e chapters so i will end here alrite? hehes.
btw, weeliang honey bunny! it's not that i dun wanna go gym wibb u all! But my SS is more important!! duiibuqii larh! wo ai ni larh! =P hehes.

p/s: anyone wanna go gym wibb me in e mrn??

study study~~

I'm so tired cans!! study study study! it's all about study! hais. Endure it perhaps? hais. i must bahhs. jiayou jiayou!! =)) SS test on monday. shall start revising later. physics - missed a no. of lessons alr. should self-revise too. Bio-inheritance (hard chapter, should read upand absorb it too.)
i heard a rumour saying starting from next weddy, we gonna have chinese lessons everyday till we take the olvl paper. arhs! damn sian. We haven even finish the topics for chem and bio , no time ald lehh! if this is true , i'll go nuts. LOL. edwin suggested it. They were wondering what's wrong with him. somemore, it's not like we chiong the 2 weeks we will score straight As larh! and xq was like '' he wan chiong he chiiong larh! why must drag us down wibb him! '' And he got his brains filled with all the syllabus already, not like us. He retained one year so it's absolutely unfair to us !!! hais. But one advantage is that our bags will be lighter =)) lighten our load =P
hehes. gg off alr. lorryloads of works to be completed.

p/s: i think i saw yb and hong just now. while walking on the pathway near westwood .

saturday.

weekend's gonna end soon (and i mean real soon. =)haa. i am a good gerl ! hehes. at least for today? hehes. i'm nice alrite (opps*). hehes. I did laundry , and prepared dinner for my mummy!!! hehes. she was absolutely happy lehh!! cus it's been quite a while i stopped showcasting my cooking skills le (hehes, dun vomit arhs. but i can cook de. solely depends whether you wanna try it or not =p hahas.) alrite. it's very late already. past midnight and i gonna off the lights and sleep real soon!! hehes. Tmr's gonna be a study day. Tuition for 3hrs afterwhich will be meeting cheekyz for extra bio lesson! hehes. I'm reallt grateful to him , giving me tuition even though he's working, very tiring de.. thanks ya!!!! hehes. This year i want to get the best improvement award!! last year already, must make the best of it!!! jiayou xiaoling!!!! =)) ppl, will you support me? hehes..

Anyway, i guess i shall change my password real soon. It's like for almost all my blog sites, frenster, msn.. yada yada... i use the same password : the same old one of his ! arhs. It's pretty easy to hack my accounts. LOL. So, perhaps i will change it soon =))

pens off,
xiiaoliing

Volunteer.

Searching for kind souls !To be a volunteer of NUH. hehhehs. As i'm gonna be one, so people, colour your life beatifully and make other's day. =)) hahas. Went to gym with honey bunny and tuhan today. It's nice! We got stucked up there for around 3 hrs? hehes. fun fun! We made a pact : of going to gym every tues and fri!! hehes. Opps it's getting late. arhs. gonna turn in soon alr. There's chem hw waiting for me to complete!!! hehes. Guys interested in being a volunteer please log on to http://www.nuh.com.sg/bav.html .. i sincerely hope people will join alrite! hahas. Lighten up their lifes! get a life! hahas

tata.. gg off. =))

wee..

In conclusion, i'm back to blog again luh. Heh. Anyway, i've lost count of how many pathetic days 've past since my last blog... 1 ? , 2? , 3? or perhaps 4? or 5? uh-uh. i dunno and will not care because it's tomorrow that matters =) hmm. After so many years, i think i've grow up le. i feel i've changed lots already. I'm hoping to be a better person but unfortunately, if anyone thinks i've changed for the worse please tell me. Because after all this while, i found out that i'm afterall a perfectionist. I will keep improving myself through other feedbacks so please tell me ya? i'll deeply appreciate it.
CCA
I've officially stepped down already meaning what's left for me to do is study. STUDIES-first priority. But, i'm really afraid. My biology really sucks. It's not that i want to use such words to be humble or modest but the truth is , it's my weakest subject ever. I've been trying to brush up on it but i seriously have no idea what is the most effective way for me to improve. i need a mentor, really should find a tuition mentor. Weeliang my honey (haha he's my stead =P) told me that his tuition mentor is excellent , but that's not the problem . The problem is : the tuition fees will cost my mum half her pay per month ($400) so how can i possibly afford it? Hais. I've thought of asking my sis to teach me but she's always so busy i really don't wanna take up too much of her personal time. NO TUITION? NO WAY! i'll flunked my bio lor. That Mdm tham! She's such a 'GOOD' teacher larh. She made us study the chapter on our own and said she will not teach as she prefer us asking her questions? DUH. have you ever met a teacher like her? Let's not forget the fact that she's old but, please la, She's old, i understand . but what if she have the energy to scold others, to go through lame CE stuffs, to confiscate my library storibook and yet have no energy to teach us? Excuse aint it? i hate scoring such low grades for my bio. I don't like being vulnerable to the situation that i am in. I wanna find a good mentor, whose charges are not so high because i really cannot afford la! Hais. Can you guys please please tell me where to find one shall you come across any? PLEASE.
Recently , there's this CDAC tuition scheme. It's to aid the poor students in their studies . I want to join but they only open classes for phys and chem , not bio. My phys is quite alrite and as for my chem, my sis is tutoring us so my biggest worry is my bio! somebody please help!!! please!. hais.

Okay i've said my piece, now i'll be waiting for people to guide me kkays. ppl, i await the good news arh! Hmm. tmr will be going for appt afterwhich will be gym with my honey bunny and then mayb study a bit and home sweet home! hehes. looking forward to a nice and sweet day.

p/s: i must not mull over it anymore. Sarah! his appearance doesnt make a difference! extricate urself, please. It's not worth risking ur o level results for a silly-willy person who cares a heck about you. Brood over it after o level. YOU HAVE TO!

JIAYOU!