I went to Vivo with baby hubby to catch Magadascar today. The movie is marvellous, i strongly reccommend it (: The baby lion cub is super adorable and the story is quite fresh , meaning the storyline is rather unpredictable. I feel so down, i feel so stressed, i really do not like to be stuck in situations like that. ):
I am so broke now i have no idea what to do with many bills poping up and so many things i have to do which require money. Sighs. How? I feel so vexed. Shouldn't have let my heart go with all those temptations i had. Sometimes , i wish money could be like rain , automatically falling from the sky, and other times i wish i have a money tree, to be able to grow lots of money! I know it sounds so childish like some 3year kid's wish but hey, i'll admit that part of me is still childish XD
Any kind souls want to help me by lending me some moolahs? ):
Anyway, something happened at night after baby hubby and i caught the movie. I had to cab home myself, i was very reluctant and crestfallen obviously and he caught the last train home. I really do not wish that things will turn this way, sometimes when i think about it i feel like running away from home. It's like, it doesn't seem like my home anymore, i can no longer feel any warmth from my family. Everyday, the only thing that i hear is Screams. Sounds crazy but yeah, that's how crazy my house is. I really feel like moving out of this dog house and get my own job so i can support myself. Who wants to stay in this house man? With people chasing you for money when obviously you have none as your mum did not give your pocket money nowadays and you are not working either. With people screaming at you when you are just 5cm away? Do i look like one with hearing problems? ): I really do not like this kind of life. Hectic man, maybe you may want to say that i am just too obsessed with love but i want to protest against this opinion you have there.
Firstly, use your brains, i am obviously not obsessed with love because i am not mentioning my love anytime anyday neither am i talking about him each time a conversation starts. Secondly, i am not so free and have nothing better to do than to spot and scold passer-bys up just because their style looks similar to my hubby's. (in other words, copy & paste )Third, i come home every single day and did not wander outside at night with me unwilling to go home.
That's why, please stop blaming everything on him. I can't deny that both of us are at faults at that incident and we learn through this, no second time. It's like we are going out because we have not been out on dates for quite a long time and you have to control me? I really abhor hearing you say things like " you are so pretty, should not close the door to your heart so early " bla bla. To me, he's my future. If you are unnhappy, i can do nothing. That's how my heart went . But i know that if anything happens in future, i will shoulder all consequences myself and not burden you all. I know you all care for me but can you at least let me have my own life? I know i'm not even 17, still very young but i know what i am doing. REALLY , i just need you all to support me in my choices, and not opposing against me all the time. It hurts so badly you know ? It really sucks to be stuck in the middle not knowing what to say and do you know.
Please just stop flooding me with these unneeded comments and advices, i don't need them. They only bring me sorrows, nothing else. Having said so, i will not blame anyone except myself shall anything happen to me in future.
I love my hubby a lot, more than anyone i've ever loved. He's sweet, he's cute and he's the only one who is able to put a smile on my face whenever i'm down. He's the only one who would dote on me and head into a lingerie shop searching for lingeries for me. Although he is not very literate, but at least he has a strong command of languages like Japanese, chinese, cantonese, hokkien. He have better skills in hairstyling than anyone of you reading this. He's treated me better than any of you do (Except my mum) He gives me pocket money each month and he really cares about me. Whenever i'm with him, i feel really secure and happy. It's not something easily given by any other person. I love him , no matter how tough the road will be for these 3 years, i will hold on to this love. I hereby make my promise that my heart and love for him will always persists, i vow with my life. I want to marry him, i want to stay with him , i can't wait for 3 years to pass by.
I love my hubby.
Alrights, it's almost 5 am now i am going to sleep. byes.
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