This entire entry is dedicated to one of my best poly friends throughout my entire poly life. She's a talented young sweetheart who adores dancing and all things pink/turquoise not mentioning she's one of the popular girls in school <3 This dear would be leaving for Finland tomorrow for half a year so here's wishing her bon voyage & all the best in Finland!
Jill ! (pronounced as Jew! Haha!) I do hope that you'd somehow stumble onto my blog and see this ~ But i hope that when you see this, it will put a smile onto your face :)
You know all these 2+ years, I thought that you are a truly nice girl. I mean, sometimes you may be too over insensitive to my feelings (but i guess that's because i read too much into it?), sometimes you may sound extremely evil but deep down inside you're just a lonely girl who puts on a front to protect yourself - a barrier to prevent others from hurting you. Sometimes you may sound bitchy towards people you do not care and occassionally i'll feel like "why is she like that?' but at the end of the day it dawn on me that well, girls are girls. Afterall, if girls aren't bitchy, then who are? We're only bitchy and nasty to certain individuals whom doesn't deserve our respect and kindness.
And to me, that is perfectly fine.
Frankly speaking, i was totally upset and mad at S that period of time you were crying like mad and i thought "Why would anyone hurt a girl like you? Someone whom has many suitors but instead turned down all of them just to be with this specific guy and yet he's treating you like this?!" I felt so helpless because there wasn't anything i could do to make you feel better. But we all knew you deserve someone far better than him! Friends are only friends, we can only try to be around you as much as we could but what happens when we are not around? Eventually, Yuting and I were really relieved that you came to your senses and got over it.
Although we do not meet up often after school hours, but from the countless projects we've done and endured together i shall say that we understand each other quite well? We know each others' strengths, weaknesses, shortcomings, personalities, OCDS so work was done easily and efficiently.
Indeed i was one of the first few friends you made in poly! We had many chances to bunk together in all our school trips - Batam and star cruise! It was a pity i didn't go Vietnam though :( I would have gone if i knew that Edusave account thingi wasn't a scam. We spent many ups and downs together - Yours & mine? I'm so glad that these moments brought us closer ^^
All the chatterings at night in our rooms, can you recall there was one night in star cruise i asked you if you depise people in poverty and from there we went saying about our family backgrounds - that was when we begun knowing each other.
And you'll always correct our pronounciation all the time because of your OCD? I think this is gonna be the part where i'll miss you the most!
They say true friends don't need to talk/meet often , but whenever one is down, the other never fails to appear in front of her and do something to cheer her up. Seeing you and Yuting so concerned about me made me realised that all the while i was so wrong. Wrong in thinking that i didn't make any real friends in my Poly because we merely meet in school for school-related stuff. Truth is, I have 4 really cool and close friends whom i've been doing projects with - we go on trips together, laugh at one another together, suffer from lack of sleep together, rush projects together and comfort one another! Therefore, i shall not grumble anymore and shall cherish this friendship that brought us together :)
Bottomline: I just wanna Thank you for being there for me always and for helping me because you treat me as a friend. I'm sorry for being irritable and for not understanding your good intentions <; I love you and I wish you good luck and all the best in Finland! Are you gonna come back with a Finnish? :P Well, just don't forget us while you're too happily working in Finland!
Friends Forever to you^^ <3
Sarah.
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