hais.

http://benglish.kennysia.com/?add=http://watashii-aisuuruu-anata.blogspot.com .

Got that through janelle aiai. Was giggling like mad when i saw hers. LOL. Ah beng language. =P
I suppose i'm feeling better already. Thanks for those who tried to understand me and be beside me when and after that inccident happened. Although i know there're not many. Anyway, just wanna thank Daphni my girlfren, and my sister for being my listening ear. =D I guess i should be alright now, he apologised to me. But, i'll still remember vaguely that once in his eyes, i was a slut to him. Hais. Fancy him telling that he loves me? Loves me=scolding me a slut? hais. Nvm, i'll just shoulder tha blame and say that i was stupid, for falling for u once.. Now the only hope of mine is for you not to contact me anymore, because i promised her and i will not break this last promise to her. I shattered her heart, shattered mine too i am not gonna hurt anyone anymore. This is my last favour to you, can?

Had tuition today, Sheila came (note that i did not say she's my aiai anymore? )- It's not because i dun wanna her as an aiai anymore, i still treat her as my very best aiai and still love her. I'm just unsure would she mind me addressing her that. I guess she just doesn't know how to react after everything that happened? to me and xueqi? HAis. Throughout the whole tuition we did not talk. Not even a greeting to each other. I didn't know how to face her and talk to her. really. hais. I really loathe this feeling. it hurts . So deep that i wanna harm myself. But, i cant. i promised myself i wun harm myself again. hais. anyway, i ggtg le. end here le.


p/s: hate this feeling!