moodless.

Completely moodless. I'm so troubled i'm sooo gonna burst any minute. I'm really trying my best. What more do you guys want? What's so wrong with me that makes you guys do these? I hate it. Why can't i just be like sleeping beauty and take a long long break, never to wake up again. Crazy sister. Crazy o level. Crazy mother. Crazy me. ARHS!!! Very frustrated !!!!. I've already tried my best not to raise my voice and be nice to you . What more do you want???!!! . I hate you my spoilt petty crazy sister!! . How i wish i can be alone right now. I need space and time and i need a break, a pretty long one indeed.

i've been pondering..Does he mean what he said? It's really not that i do not trust him. I have faith in him, it's just his actions that are getting me paranoid. Maybe all that he could have done is to make me feel that i'm important to him? Simple things like smsing me, caring more about me. Is it too much? Hmm. i guess i'm really at lost now. He knows my feelings, he knows ... does he really knows me? Or rather, do i really know him?? It 's strange how i feel as i can't really describe it. It's just.. you have to feel it. I'm tired of all these trying. All the stupid and useless attempts. It doesn't help anything at all. In fact, instead, everything's going hay-wire. I'm going mad too , soon , if this goes on.. I reckon. Msn window with him. Many things i wanna tell him. I just wldn't type it out fully. Melvin luozhiwei. can you just care for me a lil more? hais hais. I know you have ur problems too. I'm sorry i'm so demanding. Why not you just ignore me? HAishais. *cross fingers* he'll never get to see this.

p/s: lastly, i'm sick of saying i love you already. Why don't you say it instead ? you'll be doing me a great favour.