kbox.

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIMING!!!!! hope you enjoyed yourself and appreciate the pressie we gave. kekekes. I really had a great time. hee. =)) kbox!! i sung my guts out. Lol. Hehe. Anyway, i was really in a bad mood and my mind kinda ran wild . I wanted them to stop singing shan hu hai because it was really bad. teehee. But i didn't stop them . Instead, i snatched the mike from yq and sung with liming and guys. Hais. I was kinda in the mist of crying, i wouldn't take it anymore so, i cried. I was weeping so badly that yq got frightened he keep looking at me and stuffing me with tissue. I'm really sorry i cried. hais.
Shan hu hai. I hate this song. It reminds me of melvin. Everything about us. Though it was all years ago, but since we got into contact again, i miss him. Practically every minute that i'm free my mind would wander off to the vague memories i had with him.Many times i feel like confessing, but i just couldn't do it. Well, i reckon he would not want to know it too . I guess he's getting on fine with his life, already have a girl in his mind, and wouldn't care a heck about me.
I'm crestfallen, frankly.

p/s: what should i do? tell me what can i do?